My Only Light

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TW's:
-Mentions abuse and self harm

George POV

The film was halfway when I started to feel extremely tired. I was sitting next to Dream and I was feeling a little sleep deprived. I scooted a little closer to Dream. I never dared doing that if I wasn't sleep deprived. Our thighs were touching and I felt the weird feeling in my stomach again. Dream looked over and blushed whilst smiling softly.

Before I knew he wrapped his arms around my shoulders. I blushed like crazy, but accepted it happily. I rested my head against his chest and I fell asleep within minutes.

Dream POV

I watched George peacefully sleeping in my arms and I couldn't stop blushing. Why was I feeling like this with my best friend? I softly rubbed his shoulder. He seemed so relaxed now, something I hadn't really seen. Of course, it was the one of the first days we met and the first time I ever saw him in real life, but still. I now realised why he reacted weirdly sometimes. Why he hadn't edited videos for over months and why he refused to sometimes put his face cam on. Why he sometimes got mad when I asked something personal. Everything made sense now. And I wished I knew it earlier.

I watched George again, the film was still playing.

'He fell asleep,' I whispered to Sapnap.

'Aww, this is too cute.'

'What?'

'You two together like this.'

'Shut up.'

'You're blushing.'

'Shut up, I said.'

'Fine. We can carry him to bed maybe?'

'Yeah, I will. Be quiet though. I don't want him to wake up.'

I lifted him up under his knees and carried him upstairs. He was very light, which I didn't think was weird. His parents made him starve. I laid him down in his bed and covered him with his sheets. I smiled at the sight of him laying down, sleeping peacefully.

I quickly turned around when I realised I was staring for ar least 2 minutes. I ran to Sapnaps room. He was laying down too and playing on his phone.

'What's up?'

I sat down and watched my hands nervously.

'What's up, dude?'

'I'm just so worried about him.'

'Me too, dude. Should we do anything about it?'

'I mean, yes. But how? If we do his parents will kill him.'

'The police will take care of him.'

'His parents aren't here now, maybe we should enjoy this time together. We will only ruin it for him if we call the police.'

'True, let's enjoy it first.'

'Are you alright, Dream?'

I shrugged and felt my eyes filling with tears. 'Those cuts on his arms really broke me. I just don't understand how he can do something like that to himself. He is such an amazing guy, but he can't believe it because his parents just swear at him all the time.'

'It will be alright, Dream. We will report it to the police, but we have to enjoy this first. We don't see each other often and if we call the police now, the chances of it making his situation only worse are high.'

I nodded. 'I just- he doesn't deserves this. Those cuts, Sapnap. The pain he is going through-.'

I started sobbing softly. Sapnap hugged me and rubbed my back. 'It will be alright. We will keep an eye on him to make sure he isn't cutting himself anymore.'

'But cutting is an addiction, he can't just randomly stop.'

'He can, it's going to be extremely difficult, but we will help him through it.'

I nodded. It felt relieving. We were going to help him. I would do every single thing in the world possible to help George. I hated seeing him in pain. I hated seeing him all bruised. I hated seeing his scars, it hurt so extremely much. It wasn't his fault, I should never say things like this to him. It would only make him feel even worse.

'Dream? You're zoned out, dude. Is there something else wrong besides George?'

What was I supposed to say? I feel so weird around him and I just want to touch him all the time. I can't stop staring at him and I blush all the time in his presence. Or I almost kissed him when you were at the supermarket.

'What's wrong, Dream?'

'I don't know. I can't tell. It's weird. I just don't even know myself what's going on. I feel weird and I have no idea why and what I'm feeling, Sap. It's so confusing, I have no idea what to do really.'

'What are you feeling?'

'Just weird, I can't explain. Sap?'

'Yes? What's up?'

I stared at my hands for several minutes and sighed deeply. I didn't know what to say or what to do.

'Dream? Tell me.'

'Sapnap? Am I gay?'

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