My Only Light

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TW's:
-Self harm

Dream POV

I fell down on my bed and started crying. And George knew I was gay and he apparently hated me.

'YOU DANG IDIOT, WHAT HAS DREAM DONE WRONG?'

'He- I-,' I heard George muttering. 'He is gay?'

'YES, HE IS. YOU'RE SO DUMB. Yes, I'm really sorry what happened, but Dream had been there for you the whole time. He cried for hours because he feels so bad for you and you just completely scream at him? Dude, I don't know what's wrong with you. I understand you're going through an extremely difficult time, but that doesn't make up for you screaming at him like this. And if you want Dream to come back, YOU GO TO HIM.'

I heard the door slam and Sapnap ran in. 'Dream, I'm so sorry. Are you okay?'

'I'm alright. It really hurt. Don't worry about me, go back to George. I still don't want him to hurt himself.'

'Dream, you need someone now.'

'Go back to George. Please, Sap. For me.'

'Fine.'

He walked away and I cried my eyes out as soon as he left.

George POV

'Sapnap, how can I make it up with him.'

'Think of that before you do something like this. Let me help you. You're bleeding to death like this.'

'Okay. Sapnap, please help me. How can I make it better? He likes the stars right?'

'He does.'

'I can take him outside?'

'You can barely walk.'

'Tomorrow then.'

'Sure.'

'Can you help me?'

'With what?'

'I want to surprise Dream.'

'What do you want?'

'A nice spot in the evening for us to watch the stars?'

I saw Sapnap smiling a little. 'He will like that.'

'How did you know he is gay?'

'He told me.'

'Oh.'

I felt a little bit of jealousy. Why didn't he tell me?

'Is he mad?' I asked.

'No, but very hurt.'

'Can I see him?'

'You have to ask him.'

I looked at Sapnap. He wrapped bandages around my arms. 'Done.'

I stood up and tried walking to Dreams room. I knocked on his door and collapsed. Dream opened the door. He looked awful, he cried very hard. His eyes were completely red and tears still filled his eyes.

'Dream, can I make things better?'

'I don't know. You really hurt me.'

'I didn't mean it. Can I make it better?'

'Stop freaking cutting yourself.' As he said it, he pulled his sleeves down.

I directly understood what was going on and grabbed his arm. I pulled his sleeves up and it revealed five cuts.

'You did it too-,' I said, tears filling my eyes.

'Yes, I did it too, George. You basically just banned me from your life and told me everything was my fault.'

'I'm so sorry, Dream. I know you might not want to forgive me, but can I take you somewhere tomorrow evening?'

'Fine.'

'I'll call Sap. You're wounds need care.'

I walked away to Sapnap.

'Sap?'

'Yes?'

'He cut himself.'

Sapnap sighed and ran to Dreams room. 'Dream, dude.'

'I'm sorry, okay. I was just completely broken, alright.'

'Dream, you're going to promise me here and now to never cut yourself ever again.'

'I promise.'

'I promise too,' I whispered. 'If someone is interested.'

I saw Dream smiling. He tapped my shoulder shortly. 'I'm interested.'

I started crying and fell on my knees. 'I'm so sorry. I don't know why I screamed at you. I was so hurt, I just didn't know what I was doing anymore.'

'It's fine. Let's just go to bed,' Dream said. He looked so broken. His arm was wrapped in bandages and he rolled his sleeves down.

I went to bed and couldn't stop crying. Why am I so extremely stupid. I wanted to cut again, but I promised.

The next day was a little awkward. Dream and I didn't talk too much and we all were just inside. I was really sore and Dream felt a little sick, because one of his cuts was getting a little infected. Nothing too bad luckily.

Before we even realised it was already evening. Sapnap helped me prepare some stuff. He gave me a bag with some food, a music box, a blanket and he showed me where I had to go for the best spot.

'Dream?' I asked shyly.

He nodded. What's up?'

'Do you want to come with me? It's dark and I wanted make it up with you.'

'Fine.'

He stood up and walked behind me. I struggled to walk, but I didn't really mind. It was all about Dream now. We walked to the place Sapnap said I should go and I laid the blanket down in the grass. He sat down. 'What's this?'

'I thought you liked the stars and I just wanted to make everything a little bit better after yesterday. I know I hurt you and I probably can never make it better, but maybe just a little bit.'

'It's fine, George. I understand your pain.'

'No, it's not alright.'

He shushed me by placing his finger on my lips. 'It's fine. I already forgave you.'

'But the cuts.'

'Have you seen your own arms?'

I shrugged. 'Fine.'

'I'm not mad and I'm very glad you did this for me.'

'This isn't everything, Dream.'

I saw Dream smirk a little. 'Oh no, definitely not. I have some plans myself.'

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