Refusing to give you up

Chapter 19

CeyCey's phone pinged with a message before the taxi pulled away from Yigit's house. 
Emre "I am not in the city will be back later tonight. If it is important I can meet with you when I get back."
CeyCey "Evet! We need to meet as soon as possible. I have tried to get in touch with Sanem but she has her phone turned off."
Emre "Leyla is with me, we should be back around 8:30 or 9, we will meet you at the agency then, if we are not there wait for us. I will tell the security guard to let you in."
CeyCey "Ok."

Sanem was getting nervous about talking to her anne about the move. She walked around the wooded area close to the hut. Can watched her working through something in her mind but for the life of him couldn't figure out what she was thinking.

"Can!  I can't stand it. I am going to go home and talk to my anne now. I am going to tell her I am moving and pack a few more things. Then I will come back here tonight."
"Sanem, do what you need to do. I wish I could be with you but that is not possible just yet."
"I know. I know she will be upset but I would rather talk to her alone then when my Baba is there."

She called for a taxi and noticed that she had a missed call for CeyCey and a couple of text from Yigit wondering where she was with the paperwork. Wondering what was going on with CeyCey, she tried to call him but she couldn't get through, he must have been on the phone or he had turned it off because it went to voice mail.  She then text Yigit that she didn't have the paperwork with her, that she was out of town. She was on her way back home and would stop by his house so that they could discuss the book tour. Can was not happy about the detour but then he knew she couldn't keep entirely away from Yigit or people would become suspicious.

The taxi came and Sanem promised Can she would call after she talked to her anne and was leaving to come back to the hut. He hugged her tightly not wanting to let go.

She arrived at Yigit's house and knocked on the door, Huma answered, looking down her nose at Sanem. 

"Well, it is about time you checked in on Yigit."  Not wanting to start anything, Sanem walked past Huma and went over to sit in a chair close to where Yigit was sitting in his wheelchair. She pulled out a notebook and calendar.

"Yigit, I believe that we spoke about a ten city tour, is that correct?" Before he could answer Huma walked in the room on her phone "Ah, Polen, I am happy to know that Can is with you. I knew he would run to you when things went wrong." She turned and left the room. Sanem dropped her head so that no one could see the look on her face. Yigit placed his hand on her knee and squeezed. 

"Ah, Sanem, I am sorry but you know that Can and Polen have had a connection for a long time."
She didn't look up but shook her head. She was so pissed that Huma was lying about Can and Polen but she knew she had to keep her calm.

"It is ok, Yig. Let's get back to the schedule I have to be home shortly." she answered "So ten cities, where do you think we should start?" They talked and worked on the schedule for the book tour for about an hour. Huma standing by watching for any reaction from Sanem. When she stood to leave, Huma pounced again "Sanem, I am sorry that you had to hear that about Can and Polen."

"No problem, he is the one who left after all." She grabbed her things and ran out the door. Huma turned to Yigit with a sly smile on her face. 

"Now, you can start to work on her, you will join her on the book tour so that she has to look after you." Yigit nodded.

Sanem's POV

What a lying piece of  crap!! How could she lie about Can? Evet, she doesn't know that Can is still here and that we are together but still why is she trying to make things worse for me. Surely she isn't trying to push Yigit and I together. But, then I don't put anything past her. Wait til I tell Can this.

Sanem arrived home and called to anne that she would be down in a few minutes, she had something she needed to do in her room and then she needed to talk to her. Sanem closed the door to her room, went to her closet and pulled out a large suitcase.  She placed as many items as she could in the suitcase, including journals and the feather pen Can had given her. She pulled a small tote out and placed the items she used to make her creams inside. She looked around the room and decided to also take the Albatross poster, so she rolled that up and put it in the bags with her creams.  She walked down stairs and placed the bags by the door before heading out to the garden to talk to her mother.

Mevkibe was sitting outside sipping on her tea, when Sanem walked out and sat beside her. She could tell that Sanem was worried about something but she held her tongue until the girl was ready to talk.

"Anne, I love my family, you all mean the world to me and you have stood beside me through this ordeal with Can. But, I feel like I am suffocating."

"What do you mean?"
"Well, I am an adult but you and Baba are treating me like a little kid. Yes, Can is gone, he has left and I am sad but I am doing ok. The fact is you are hovering, I can't breath, I feel like a child. You question me about everything, where I am, when I will be home, who I am with."
"Sanem, we are concerned about you, we love you that is what parents do."
"I know Anne, but" she pause knowing that this was not going to go very well "I need space, I need to be able to feel the pain, to learn from the pain, to be able to come and go, if I need to walk to the coast and not be questioned about my every move. I have decided that I am going to move to my own place."
" What and how will you afford a place?
"I have a job and with the money I have left from my advancement check I will be fine as long as I don't try to live outside my means."  she paused looking straight into her mother's eyes "I know this upsets you and I know you are only looking out in my best interest. But, I need to live my life, without restrictions or someone else telling me what I can and cannot do."
"I am concerned about you but I do understand, the mahalla puts restrictions on all young women, they pressure you to be what they want and you have never fit into their mold of what you should be." she stops to look at Sanem "I am just afraid that the effects of Can's leaving have not fully hit you and when they do you will be alone."

Sanem sits quietly as her mother continues "Where are you going to live?"

"Tonight, I am going to a hotel, close to work then over the weekend I will look for a place to live."
"Oh, why are you not staying here tonight?"

"Because, I don't want anyone to try and tell me I can't do this. And you know Baba will do exactly that, he will try to forbide me from leaving and then we will get into an arguement. I am truly ok as far as Can is concerned. I have cried my tears, talked to Ayhan on the phone and even talked to myself. If he is truly gone, then he needs to stay gone, we both said things that night but I need you to understand that Can asked me to leave the hospital and go talk with him privately. Which I should have done! I should have never let him leave the hospital thinking I didn't know he needed me as much as Yigit did that night."

"Evet, you both are horrible at communicating. Well, let me see you to the door and please call me and let me know you arrived at the hotel or I will worry."