Spectral Love

Chapter 11

It's been about three months since Demetrius's confession. Everything was going well until about 3 weeks to a month ago.

Something has been happening to Demetrius lately. There were days where he practically glitched. Whenever I asked him whether he was okay or anything he would always say that he was fine but I could see that he would sometimes become weak.

I was worried about him and no matter how many times he tried to reassure me I couldn't believe him. His smile has gotten weaker and he gets tired more quicker than before. There are days where he practically sleeps the whole day away, which was unlike him.

As I sat next to him on the couch I couldn't help, but to notice that Demetrius's breathing patterns seemed to be a little out out of tune with each other.

"Are you okay?" I asked Demetrius growing more concerned by the second.

"I'm okay Baby." He said forcing a smile. "You don't have to worry about me." He continued pulling me into his arms.

"Demetrius please stop lying to me, we agreed to no more secrets remember. Please just tell me, what's wrong?" I asked placing my hand on his chest.

"You're right. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me Sweetheart. Some days I feel lightheaded, some days I feel so exhausted, more exhausted than I've ever felt, other days I feel as though my breathing is out of sync. It's a lot Baby and I don't understand where it's coming from." He said releasing a yawn even though it was 13:25 he looked as tired as a person who hasn't slept in days.

"But don't worry, I'm sure I'll be fine." He said trying to reassure me and failing miserably.

"Stop lying to me Demetrius, I can see everything, you haven't been the same in over 2 weeks." I said on the verge of tears. The stress was eating me alive, what if he was dying and there is nothing that I can do about it.

"Shhh,it's okay. I'm not going to leave you Baby." He said wiping away the traitorous tears which had managed to escape from my eyes and pulling me in for a kiss which left him more breathless than me. "How about a little power nap, it will make me feel better." Demetrius asked looking at me with concern.

"Okay, let's go." I said leading the way to our bedroom. We both slipped into the bed, and brought our bodies as close to each other as possible as Demetrius stroked my hair back while saying sweet nothings to me in an attempt to cheer me up.

"Don't disappear while I'm asleep." I said voicing out my concerns.

"I won't My Love, now rest." He said pulling me to him and planting a kiss on my forehead.

Over the next couple of days things seem to be settling down but today everything changed. I entered the apartment to find Demetrius on the floor with his eyes barely open. I rushed over to him, kneeled down and picked up his head placing it on my lap.

"You're going to be okay Demetrius." I said in hysterics looking at his weak form.

"Shh... cry...Em..il...ia." He said reaching out to wipe my tears struggling to speak. "It... will.. be.. okay.. Baby." He said with a small weak mind.

"Please don't leave me, Demetrius. I love you Baby, I've been in love with you for some time now, I've just been afraid to say it. I've always been afraid of falling in love." I said sobbing as I looked at Demetrius's fading body. " I'm so sorry Demetrius." I said looking down at Demetrius.

"I...love...you..too." He stuttered with his eyes shining with undeniable love. "It's okay to be afraid to fall in love, it's a part of life. Plus falling in love with a ghost is not easy, because you never know when that person will disappear and for how long they will disappear." Demetrius continued to stutter.

"I'm so sorry Emilia, I never wanted to leave you My Love." He said with a sad smile as a tear escaped his left eye. "I love you Emilia and I always will." Demetrius uttered before he closed his eyes and disappeared into mid air leaving me a sobbing mess.

I felt so alone and broken. I was so used to Demetrius's company that not having it felt strange. I felt lost in my own home. I didn't know what to do with myself so I decided that I would go to sleep. Sleeping was a good escape from the world and at this moment I needed it more than ever.

The bed felt cold without Demetrius, sleeping with him has become such a habit that it feels strange not to have him here. I silently cried myself to sleep that afternoon. When dinner time came, I had no appetite so I settled on eating a fruit salad because I knew that Demetrius would want me to force eating, he would be upset to hear that I had skipped a meal.

I silently ate the salad and then headed off to bed, not knowing what else I could do with myself. In the past 3 years that I've lived here, I've never felt as lonely as I do now. This apartment that used to be my safe heaven felt void of all comfort, I just felt lost. There was currently no light in my life.

I contimplated on telling my Mom about this whole thing but decided against it when I thought about my Mom's personality and stuff. She would probably worry about by mental health, thinking that I was losing my mind most probably out of loneliness and that is something that I didn't need right now.

I ended up ordering myself some pizza for supper because I didn't feel like cooking. I didn't feel like eating but I was forcing it down because I knew that not eating would not benefit anyone, not even myself.

I woke up at around 8:15 the next morning due to the ringing of my phone signalling an incoming call.

"Hello?" I answered without even checking the caller ID.

"Good morning Dear, I'm sorry if I interrupted your sleep." Lauren said sounding genuinely apologetic. "I was calling to give you some news on Demetrius." She said.

My heart slightly dropped when she mentioned that the news were on Demetrius, what was wrong with him, was he really gone?

"Dear, are you still there?" Lauren asked on the other line.

"Yes, I'm still here, I'm sorry I got a little distracted for a second." I apologized to Lauren hoping that she was offended by my sudden disappearance.

"It's no problem, Honey, you probably have a lot on my mind, anyway Demetrius's doctor called to tell us that he has spotted a change in Demetrius's state of health." Lauren said.

Please be good change. I silently begged in my head, hoping for the best. I honestly couldn't handle any bad news right now. I just wanted Demetrius to be okay.

"What did they say?" I asked lightly biting a nail on my finger.

"The doctor said that the has been a good shift in Demetrius's health, if we're fortunate enough he might even wake up this week." She continued sounding happy herself.

"That's great news Lauren." I said overjoyed that Demetrius would be okay.

"Dr Davids even said that we should visit him more often and talk to him to help give him strength to pull out of the coma." Lauren continued to explain. "I just wanted to let you in on the great news." Lauren said.

"Thank you Lauren, this really is great to hear, I'll go to visit him later on today or early tomorrow then." I told her already knowing that I was going to go today.

"It's no problem at all, Honey. I better go now but I'll let you know if anything else changes." Lauren said.

"Okay thank you." I said.

"Bye." She said blowing a kiss and hanging up.

I couldn't describe how happy I was at that moment. To know that Demetrius's health had improved was good news but to know that he could even wake up as early as this week was great news. I couldn't wait to see him, he was the love of my life after all and I was in love with him, after all this time I was finally able to admit it to myself that I loved Demetrius and I couldn't live without him.