You'll have to learn some French

Chapitre 3. Getting to know eachother

Je suis contente d'avoir rencontré Nathan, il est comme un vent de fraîcheur dans ma vie. Un vent dont j'avais désespérément besoin. Je n'en ai parlé à personne, et je ne le ferais probablement jamais, mais je ne vais pas très bien ces temps-ci. Je le garde pour moi parce que ça me gêne. Tout, enfin presque tout, va bien dans ma vie alors comment ce fait ils que je me sente si mal? J'ai des pensées que je n'ai jamais eu et des angoisses que je n'arrive plus à gérer donc elles s'accumulent au point où j'en deviens insensible, indifférente. Les choses qui me passionnaient autrefois sont rendu des activités qui me demande trop d'efforts et que je ne veux plus faire. Je ne veux plus rien accomplir et simplement cesser d'exister. Mais vous voyez, en me disant cela je me trouve dramatique car ma vie va bien alors si je faisais un petit effort je pourrais aller bien aussi, non? Je ne sais plus, je suis perdue. Mais je suis plutôt bonne pour avoir un sourire, vrai ou pas, dans mon visage 24-7, pas besoin d'inquiéter les autres, ils ont aussi leurs problèmes.

La cloche me sort de mes pensées, moi qui avais dit que j'écouterais mon cours de math. En sortant de la classe, Nathan me prend la main et me tire à l'écart.

"Hey are you all right? You seemed a little sad back there."

" Oh no I'm ok, I was just thinking." I reply, pleading him with my eyes to drop the subject. I can see that he doesn't believe me but he let it go anyway.

"So what's our next class?" He asks, eyeing two young boys running down the hallway like their lives depended on it.

"We have physics but right now it's the lunch period". Saying that I wondered where Mélodie was because we usually ate together. About 10 seconds after making that reflection, I received a text from her saying that she would eat outside of school. Knowing my best friend, she probably met a cute girl and decided to get to know her. Mélodie is a big flirt and she likes to meet new people so this has became normal for me.

"My friend is not going to join us so we can go directly to the cafeteria" I say to Nathan.

"Ok no problem, is the food good here?"

"I guess you will have to see for yourself" I reply with a smirk...

"...Ewww this is absolutely disgusting!" Nathan says half-choking.

I can't stop the laugh that erupts from my throat. This is just hilarious. Nathan and I are currently sitting in the corner of the cafeteria and he practically went in shock when he tried his meal. I have to give it to him, le bœuf stroganoff is definitely the worst choice on the menu.

But now that I see the disappointment on his face I kind of feel bad, so I give him half of my sandwich. Nathan thanks me, in English, so I take the opportunity to teach him a new word.

"Nathan do you know how to say thank you in French? This is pretty important." I tell him.

"Hmm yes but I don't want you to laugh because my prononciation is absolute shit" he replies shyly.

"Don't worry I won't laugh and I'm sure it's not that bad." I encourage him.

"Meurrci"

"Merci"

"Meurci"

"Stop saying mercy it's merci!"

"Merci" he finally gets it.

"Yayyy good job! I'm an incredible teacher!"

"Yeah right" he jokes "Google traduction would be better than you"

"Aww thanks, recognition feels so good" I say while faking a big smile and teary eyes.

"Whatever" he scoffs.

"So, why did you come here? Of all places, why  choose this pretentious town." I know he's probably tired of answering those questions but I can't help it, I'm curious!

"Well it's really boring actually, we just moved because of my dad's job. He's a doctor and his boss requested that he works here to develop new methods I think, something like that."

"Oh ok so your entire family moved here"

"No it's just me and my dad" he shrugged.

I can feel that this is a sensible subject so I don't push further and we make our way outside the school in silence.

We pass by a group of boys and I lock eyes with one of them. My eye go wide in fear and I cower behind Nathan hoping my tormenter hasn't seen me. I take my new friend's hand and pull on it as hard as I can so he walks faster.

Once we're outside I finally breathe but my eyes are still full of tears. I can't believe I forgot about him. I guess I wasn't too focus on Nathan to remember the person who made my life a living hell last year.

Nathan looks at me, worry clear on his face. Shit! How am I going to explain this.

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