After Dark (Hacienda De Bel Series #1)

Prologue

My happiness shatter the delusion dividing the memory from reality. They tore my soul wide open.

Nilalakad ko ang daanan patungo sa lugar kung saan nahahanap ko ang aking kasiyahan, kung saan walang ibang nakakaalam. Wearing my long sleeveless dress and walking barefoot. tiningnan ko ang aking talampakan na nagdudugo pero wala akong maramdaman na sakit, malapit na ako sa akin pinaroroonan. I laugh as I remember what happen then cry

"F-fuck" wika ko na pabulong

Hey! Your too mysterious universe. You scared me by undiscovered lies, they have a greater capacity to diminish me than exposed ones. They erode my strength, my self-esteem, my very foundation. Falling to pieces as I see this world getting nothing but worse.

Ramdam ko na ang simoy na hangin na nanggaling sa dagat, hininto ko ang aking paglalakad.Tahimik kong pinagmamasdan ang dagat, malamig na hangin tanging buwan at mga bituin lang ang nagpapaliwanag sa aking paligi. Tulad ng aking nararamdaman, ganun din ang nararamdaman ng panahon. Tila ba may kasama ako. I want to be left alone so no one could see me hurting but i feel good being lost in myself

I look up to see the night skies. I let my tears to flow as i feel the small raindrops, karamay ko ang langit. slowly looking back to the Ocean where waves became more wild and hard. I tried my best to be enough, I tried! Pero wala din tinalikuran at tinaksil nila ako. Im too clueless and it's bullshits. Humagulgol ako dahil walang wala na ako. I felt so much that I started to feel nothing, I don't know what I feel anymore. I feel........numb

"Why?" Hina kong saad habang luha ay umaagos. Dahan dahan kong nilakad ang patungong dagat.

I'm now facing my life where I can't call my family 'home', where no one could ever help me.

The water drifted up to my hips, a million kisses from the ocean's lips, a gentle caress from the deep blue. The water enveloped around my waist. A thousand tiny fingers around me laced. The horizon calls, it beckons me out towards it, across the sea.

"Calista!" Isang bariton na boses aking narinig pero hinayaan ko, patuloy ko nilalakad ang patungong dagat.

Under the water, below the sea, the creatures are calling, they're calling to me. I wanna dive bottomless but I feel the weight beginning to crush me, Making it harder to breathe, Sowing my lips shut-shutting down like the rest of my body. Everything feels like so much, But then nothing at all. I'm lost in the confusion

I already lose my self.