Someone I Loved (Lee Felix X Reader) Stray Kids ff

Chapter 14: Sides

Disclaimer:
Nothing mentioned in this chapter is meant to offend anyone or belittle any issue. It's purely fictional perception. I apologize if I hurt anyone's sentiments or sound ignorant towards mental issues. It's not my intention to do so. Everything is purely fictional perception.
Thank you.

Felix's P.O.V

Another day started and a weird feeling took over me. But I didn't pay much attention to it and decided to brush it off and pack my bags. "It can't be that bad."
I opened the door and "Good morning, Felix."
I stood there, perplexed, not knowing what to do.
"What are you doing here, Jiwon?" I asked holding the door knob tightly.

"I was just walking around. Thought I'd see you once." She innocently shrugged her shoulders.

"At 7:30 in the morning? You live 5kms away. Come up with a better excuse." I called her out in my coldest tone.
She didn't take that well, though. "Don't be rude for no reason. I came here to see you. Can't I even do that?"

"No, you can't. After fucking things up between us and now between Y/N and me, you can't. Go home." I shut the door behind me, pushed her aside (because she was blocking my way) and made my way to college on foot.

"I have a car. I can give you a ride." She pulled out her car keys from her purse and paced to catch up.
"No, thanks. I'm alright walking. Please go away. I don't want to talk to you." I walked faster trying to out run her.
"Hey, wait! Talk to me for once! I swear I'll be nice." I heard her foot steps getting closer and then felt her hand on my shoulder.
I stopped in my spot. "What do you want?"

"Well, how's it going with the two of you?" She put her hands behind and took a step back.
"Well, after you told me to ignore her for a week so that she comes to me, NOT GOOD. I don't even know why I listened to you. Why did I ever think it was a good idea?" I held my head in frustration, almost ripping my hair off.

"Maybe it's because...you still like me?" A smirk curved her lips and that irked me.
"You remember that you cheated on me, right? Twice?" I turned around and started walking again to avoid her.
"It was a mistake! I didn't do it on purpose! You were busy with school and and and I was lonely..." Her voice broke and a tear rolled down her eyes.
I couldn't believe my ears and my eyes. Such an actor.

"So you cheated on me? You know that my shit started because of this!" I felt my voice getting raised with every word in anger and dissapointment.

"People leave, Felix. Everyone leaves. No one's gonna stay beside you. They don't like you enough to stay. That's what you did to Y/N, didn't you?" She crossed her hands as if she were preaching something important.
"I know people are temporary. But do we push away the people who genuinely are close to us? Emotionally and physically?" I said as I held my bag's strap tightly trying to show her my perspective.

"Yeah. That's what you did. You pushed her away because she was going to leave you sooner or later, right?" She wiped her tears and looked me directly in the eyes. Her gaze dark and ruthless like never before.

"You know that's not how I am. People are temporary. People leave. But shouldn't we cherish them while they're with us? What if if you loved someone so dearly and then one day they leave you because they thought you were eventually gonna leave them? Wouldn't that hurt a bit?" I said frustratedly. I felt a tear make it's way down to the ground from my eye.
"I'm probably not well versed in all this. I don't understand fully, but I'm trying my best..."
A long silence dawned upon us. She had nothing to say. Nothing. But I did.

"YOU TOLD ME SHE WAS TOO GOOD FOR ME AND THAT'S WHY I SHOULD LEAVE HER. And I freaking listened to you like a bloody idiot." I crouched and sat down, looking at the ground while silence took over us again.