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~24~ " Guilty "

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Stray kids - Ex

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I throw myself on my bed after a long stroll on my bike. What have happened today was really drained myself out. I guess i did a wrong move.

I turned my face , facing the window and i can see the view of Seungmin inside his room. He's doing something on desk, maybe homework. A little smile appears on my face , be able to see him is makes me happy.

I wonder if you'll ever love me again, Minnie..

Just at the right time, Wonpil enters Seungmin's room, standing next to the younger guy while caressing his head softly. Seungmin goes all smiley and soft, he giggles when Wonpil gives him a kiss on his temple and a small peck on his lips.

I gulped my saliva, i honestly can't stand to see all of that. I knew that Wonpil was his brother, but....

"F*ck.." I cursed. What's wrong with me?? I'm being jealous on his own brother.. I hate myself for feeling that way. But i just can't help it.

I'm too eager to make him fall into my arms again and it makes me lose myself to see him being lovely with another guys. I remember how we used to be cuddly to each others, we never hesitates to do anything together. But i guess this is my own karma. I'm the one who ruined all of these, i ruined him, i ruined his feelings.. I made him sick.. I ruined everything between us. And now i'm only left with regrets.

I must've been crazy back then, i'm being too selfish. Me without you, is so empty . I can't go on by myself because it turns out that you're all i have . I must've been really crazy.

I admitted that it was my fault for letting my eyes be drawn by someone else when you still here, loving me like an idiot. I hurted you but you never hurt me even once.

I guess i didn't know back then, when i'm not with you , i can hardly breathe. I didn't know why i did that, i had really lost it that day and i made you walk alone.

I hate myself for regretting it this much, and i can't control myself any longer.

And now, i can feel how he must be feeling when he saw me with other person. He loved me for years, and it was amazing how he managed to put up with that through the years.

You have grown far from me, that i hardly reach you. I'm the one who're living in pain of not being able to turn back time and go back to how we were.

But..

I promised myself not to let him go for the second time. I will never forgive myself if i let go of my second chance. Although i knew how much his brother must be hating me, i knew how mad his brother was , i knew how his brother silently tried to made Bangchan date Seungmin, i knew it all.