You belong with Me [✔END]

~6~ "Love is Blind"

Why you gotta hug me like that every time you see me?
Why you always making me laugh
Swear you're catching feelings
I loved you from the start

So it breaks my heart
When you say I'm just a friend to you

Cause friends don't do the things we do
Everybody knows you love me too
Tryna be careful with the words I use
I say it cause I'm dying to
I'm so much more than just a friend to you 🎵🎶

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As soon as i reached home, i throw on my comfy bed. Staying silent for a couple minutes before crying my eyes out.

F*ck. I feel like shit.

I really didn't think that i'm trapped in this false hope again. When i thought everything will go well as i imagined it would be.

Why does his words hurt me so much.. I know he didn't mean it, he said the truth. I'm the stupid one who thought that he'll love me back. I'm the one who think highly of myself. I know he will never see me more than just a friend, and i will never escape this friendzone.

It's hurt to have this one-sided feelings. I hate.. definitely hate the fact that i was born as a male. I hate myself for ridiculously fell for a man.

Falling for your best friend.. Is the most stupid things i ever do in my life.

"Shit.." I cursed with my tears flow down of my cheeks. Why loving someone is hurting this much??

Knock knock.

I heard a knocking sound from outside, but i just ignored it. I burries my face on the pillow, sobbing badly. From all the heartbreaks i have felt along this way of loving Hwang Hyunjin.. This is definitely the worst.

"Seungmin? Are you okay? I saw you crying , can i come in?"

My big brother, Wonpil voice resonances. I didn't respond him, yet i hide myself inside a thick blanket. Not wanting him to see me in this state. Without waiting for my response, Wonpil goes in through my unlocked door and sits on my bed.

"Okay, you should explain to me. What is happening?" He asked.

I squirms inside my blanket, shaking my head while pulling the blanket up to my head. Wonpil only letting out a deep sigh, he tries to pull my blanket away but i pulled it back. But then he managed to make my head pops out. I quickly wipes my tears away and burried my face on the pillow.

"Kim Seungmin! What's happening?? " Wonpil asked with a slightly mad tone. He must be saw my crying face. But i shakes my head "i-i'm fine.. hyung.." I said hoarsely.

"Was it him again?"

I stayed quiet on his question.

I can hear Wonpil sighing before he moves closer to me and scoops me into his arms, hugging me tightly.

"I told you hundreds time already, Kim Seungmin.. You're really stubborn" he lightly soothes my back who was starting to choke a cry again.

"B-but..but.. I love him so much- i.." I sobbed on his shoulder. Tears are uncontrollably come out of my eyes "h..how..how c-can he said t-that..it's not my fault that i'm born as a male!"

Wonpil grabbed my shoulders, lightly shake them "hey hey listen here.. " he stares at me who wouldn't stop crying "listen, it's not your fault..and no one's fault. We can't choose how and who will we born into, being a male is never be a sin. You can love anyone you want, it's your right..but you have to remember too that not everyone think the same way as you did. You might like a man, but not every man like another man too"