Love Me or Leave Me

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"well what were you so hesitant about that you avoided me, imean we could figure this  together-"

"Seola, please dont be mad. You told me that your parents broke up because of their buisinessess right?. Well dad said that he knows your mother and that.....she had an affair with him" you said looking at me in the eyes . Seems like you have been bottling about this as you released a relief sigh

"what"

"i know i shouldve told you sooner-

"Bohyun . This is about us. I dont care if my mother had an affair with your father, my mother was dead to me when she divorced with dad cause i knew she was a slut. Thats a harsh thing to say, but she is the one who gave birth to me, thats why i still keep some contacts with her. But otherwise, We should not keep stuffs from each other. "

"i know, but-"

"bohyun, love me or leave me, right now. Cause even if you say a thousand times how much you love me, its hard for me to believe now. words are just words, even if you try to proof right now by making a move and sleeping with me, i wont be satisfied cause i dont want to believe that this is it. You made me fall for you now, but then you hurt me, right here in my heart. And i dont think this is the first time you met that woman. God knows how many you slept with her when you came home late and i foolishly thought you were stressed from work."          

you stayed silent the whole time

"omg, does this mean what everything i just said true?! Bohyun WHAT THE ACTUAL FUC-

"SEOLA LISTEN TO ME-

"NO BOHYUN. ITS FKN DISGUSTING YOU WERE SLEEPING WITH ANOTHER WOMAN WHILE YOU ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP.......I thought you were committed to me."

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"i accept that i got swayed a bit and i cheated on you, but i didnt intend on hurting you this much like this"

"well honey too bad you already did. Guess the thought of you being engaged wasnt on your mind. A-a..-am i that naive and too young to understand what is going through your mind?.........

"i think you just need a time on your own to figure this all out. I dont think this is something i am going to be helpful in. How are we gonna fix this when you havnt even fix yourself yet?"

"are you breaking up with me?"

"i prefer the term dumping you but i cant even cause you caused this mess first, and i love u too much for this. But i am pulling the 'we are on a break ' term. After you figure yourself out, and i calm down more, we will meet again. okay" i said, then kissed your cheeks and left to my room

"go back to your place tomorrow and take your stuffs".

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Bohyun POV

I cannot believe this happened. Like it may not seem too crazy but my mind is running in circles now. I love Seola very much, but the nights i spent with the woman, its just not going out. Seola is there to give me the pleasure if she wants and i want, why did i slept with her. As much as Seola is younger than me, she is acting so mature about this. NO beating me, arguing overnight and shouting at each other, but deep inside i knw she is pain, the cause, which is me. She just came up with a simple conclusion and thats it. But she is right. Shes always right. I need to find a way and figure this all out. BUt im not just gonna beg her forgiveness, im gonna earn it and make her mine all over again