Flowers For a Loved One (Yandere Boy)

Chapter 6

"You know, Alice. You and i have met before" his tone changed.

"What do you mean?" i asked him confused.

"It was a long time ago" he began "I know you don't remember that part of your life, you've almost completely forgotten.."

Could he be talking about the time before my mother passed away? The psychologist at my old school said it was a way of repressing traumatic memories, you forget they even happened as a way to not hurt your subconscious. I don't know who i was before my mother passed away, i don't remember who my mother was only that she loved me dearly. I wish to meet her again and ask her how life was back then.

"I have to admit i had a crush on you" he smirked.

My eyes widened and my jaw almost completely dropped, i didn't expect him to say something like that all of a sudden. A crush on me? What could be so special about me that would make someone have any type of romantic feelings towards me.

"You were my savior honestly" he continued "Everyday after class, the older kids would bully me because of my looks. You see, the girls in class always thought i was really pretty for a boy. They would confess to me but that would make the other boys in class mad. All the attention was on me and none of it was on them." he explained.

I can understand why the girls fawned over Hitoshi, he is very handsome, but not in masculine way, he's very soft and gentle like cuddly bunny. I've never met anybody who gives off an aura like Hitoshi.

"That's where you came in Alice" he said happily with a grin "You were much younger than us but that day you were like a warrior, telling the boys to stop picking on me or you would expose their underwear to the girls"

"I-I said that?" i asked feeling flustered. I don't think i've ever been so confident, let alone to a bunch of boys. Have i changed that much from who i was before my mother passed away?

"Ever since that day, we became best friends." he continued explaining "But then your mom got sick." his voice became sad and it looked almost as if he'd cry.

"You loved your mom a lot, so when she got sick it was a lot for you. I tried to be there for you but you stopped coming to school as much and one day you never came back" a single tear dripped down his cheek, i reached over to wipe it but he grabbed my wrist.

"That's why Alice, now that i've found you" his voice became malicious and his aura changed completely his grip on my wrist tightened and the look in his eyes was almost a similar representation of the darkness that resided in my home. He pushed me down on the couch, his body over mine putting his knee in between my legs "I can't let you leave again" he whispered in my ear before pulling away off of me.

The room grew silent and neither of us talked. What was there to say, he practically threatened me but I didn't know how to feel about it. "The doctor said you should get some rest, so if you like you can sleep here tonight" he broke the silence scratching the back of his head awkwardly but the tone of his voice didn't change as if he had turned into another person.

Can i trust Hitoshi?

I think he caught onto my silence so he looked at me with concern in his eyes "Did i scare you?" he asked getting on his knees in front of me, i didn't want to say anything so i stayed silent avoiding the question.

"I would never hurt you, Alice" his mood was lightening up a little but i still felt uneasy around him.

"I love you, Alice"

Those words struck a cord with me, how can he love me. My face was filled with shock, I couldn't believe he would confess something like that. Looking at his face, his cheeks were a bright red and i could tell he was embarrassed of his confession. I still couldn't believe it, even though he's known me for a long time i am not the same Alice he once met, i'm different now and even if he did, why? Because i saved him once when we were kids, that's not a good enough reason to love someone is it?

If that's so, then what does this mean of my father?

Is the way he treating me his way of love, is that the way love is suppose to be. If that's the case, then Hitoshi's love is different, right? It's warm and soft but it can also be dark. Does love always come with a dark side? Would Hitoshi ever hurt me then, if that's what love is?

My brain was running a thousand miles per hour. All this talk of love but i don't even know what love really is. I can't trust that any of them love me, because i don't know what love is. I could feel the tears streaming down my face, I was so confused.

Hitoshi grabbed my waist pulling me down to the ground with him so my legs wrapped around him. I was sitting on his lap facing him. "I love you, i really do" he said happily holding me into a tighter embrace. I couldn't move my body, still trying to process everything that was happening.

"H-How can i believe you?" i asked feeling myself blush at how close we were "That girl you speak of, that's not me anymore" i explained diverting my gaze away from his. His expression changed to something of frustration. I don't understand what love is or how love is shown.

"I know you, Alice" he whispered in my ear as he got got closer to me pulling me closer to his chest. We were practically inches apart from each other "I know everything about you, you have not changed. You've only become afraid"

"I can help you, Alice" he said looking deeply into my eyes "Let me help you not be afraid anymore". His arms held me tighter as he placed his hand on my back arching it and burying his face in my neck.

"H-Hitoshi" my voice was shaky and my eyes began to water, i don't know what to do. I don't have much of a choice right now, do i? All he wants to do is help me, and no one else has extended a hand for me.

Is it a mistake to accept Hitoshi's love?

He pulled away from my neck but only far enough to where our eyes could meet, looking down into his eyes all i could mutter was "Help me please" tears beginning to run down my face, his eyes widened immensely as he smiled happily. His grip around my waist tightened and the warmth from his body gave me what could feel like happiness. His grip on my waist was extremely tight, but still breathable. I wonder if this is what Hitoshi's love will always be like, warm and kind not the darkness i saw earlier in his eyes.

This night was different, there was no monsters coming to get me and the darkness wasn't filled with disgust and torture. I welcomed this night with open arms and this darkness was not one of fear but of happiness.