The Leaders will be the Death of Me

*Chapter Five* "Curious, Steely Gray Eyes"

A/N: Sorry this chapter took a little while! Hope you enjoy it! And for some of u, I think is the chapter you've been waiting for... Plz vote and comment! I know voting means nothing to u but it does to me! Thanks😘. I'm swamped with midterms this week! But after I get through this week, MIDTERMS R OVER!!! Whoooo! Ok, carry on. Don't wanna bore u to much😂

"Are you okay?" I look up, the new fresh tears flowing down my face. My eyes meet with the same big depressed eyes as my father. My big brother that I hadn't seen in ten years. Although he was only two years older he would always read me bedtime stories. I look down thinking about all the memories I've missed out on. Growing angry I clench my fists, then take a deep breathe and unclench them. He doesn't even recognize his own sister?! Well, how could he? Mom made it so no one would recognize me from Dauntless. I grit my teeth, stand up and walk past him. He grabs my arm and I slap him.
"Leave me alone, Zeke!" I growled angrily. Why was it they got to say here and I was sent away?!
"Do I know you... I don't recognize you..."
"You seriously don't know who I am? Your own sister and you don't know who I am?!" I whispered-yelled. "I recognize my brother and he doesn't recognize me!" I scoff running down the hallway. I hear Zeke coming after me and I sprint faster. I run into something hard and tall. I'm shoved to the ground and I hit my head.
"Ash?" I hear Four's relatively soft voice and I relax a little bit, its not Eric. I sigh in relief. I hear Zeke's footsteps and I try to get up but Four kneels down and sets his palm on my chest holding me down.
"You could be hurt, with a concussion. Be careful. Come on, I'll bring you to the nurse." He helps me up.
"Scarlett! Scar, wait please! I'm sorry."
"Is that Zeke's voice? Who's he screaming for?"
"Uhhh I don't know... Ow ow my head." I fake winced in pain. Four just looked at me with concerned eyes.
Four stares at me. For a few moments he does not speak. "Why do you act so guarded around the leaders, Scarlett?"
"My names Ash. Now I'm thinking you are the one that hit your head." I said laughing it off pushing myself to my feet.
"Scarlett!" Zeke yelled harshly coming down the hallway. Four glanced at me and I shrugged my shoulder. I just stare blankly at Zeke for a few minutes, then I start to stare harshly at Zeke begging him to shut up. I don't know if I can trust Four.
Zeke runs over and grabs me and holds me close, and surprisingly I hug back, my eyes watering. He presses a kiss to my forehead. Then once the feeling of happiness is gone he looks at me strictly. "What are you doing here?!"
"I think we should take this to my apartment , Zeke" Four stated showing no emotion.
"Look, I'm not going anywhere with either one of you. I'm sorry, but I can't trust Four, and I-I can't trust you either, Zeke." I said then walked past Four coming in contact with his shoulder hard. I kept walking till I reached the initiates dorm. I have to face Peter...
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I pause outside of the initiates dorm. Should I go in? How am I going to be able to muster the courage to do this? I go through the hole in the wall entering the dorm. I see Peter sitting on his bed. I approach him cautiously. "Hey...Can we take a walk?" He looked over to me and nodded nervously.
"Hey, are you okay?" I asked him concerned. He got up and forcefully took my hand dragging me out of the dorm. For the first time in Dauntless, I fear my life.
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The sound of water crashing up against a wall fills my ears, and a rush of adrenaline courses through me. "Peter..." I say calmly as possible. "Please let go..." Peter slammed my hand against my side. I wince. He glances down at the water.
"Just say it." He growled through his teeth. "You're in love with him."
"What?! In love with who?! This has nothing to do with somebody else! God, Peter. I'd never..." I feel myself get pushed against the railing with Peter's body weight pushed against me.
"Four! You're in love with Four and Eric! I see you looking at both of them. I saw you run into Four, I saw him putting his hand against your chest. If it wasn't for Zeke, God knows where that was going! And I see the way Eric looks at you. He studies you. Must mean something!" He screamed in my face, pushing my head over the rail.
"Nothing is going on with Four and I! Or Eric! Eric studying me has nothing to do with me! Okay?! And Four he means nothing to me! Eric is a leader and Four is our instructor! Just let me go!" Realization hit Peter's face.
"I-I'm sorry." He released me and I hit his shoulder as I walked away. My eyes meet the curious steely gray eyes that were once again studying me. I dropped my gaze and walked past Eric. He grabbed my hand.
"Why does your boyfriend think you're in love with me?"
"I don't know? Why don't you ask him! How long have you been standing there?!"
"Long enough to know what happened with Four." He looks me and down. "You better hope it was nothing."
"So you let him almost push me over the chasm?! And what did you do?! YOU STOOD THERE! Actually, I don't know why I'm surprised." I growled in his face. I storm past him shoving him as I walk away.
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I walk into the dining hall avoiding anyone's eyes who look my way. I grab food throwing it on my plate and smack my tray down on the table. My eyes lock with Zeke's. His sad eyes move to my arm and see the scratches Peter left. Zeke starts to get out of the chair and I send him a warning glance and shake my head. My eyes drift to the boy beside Zeke. They skim over a skinny, but broad 16 year old boy. Recognition hits me. Uriah... I feel a sudden pang in my chest urging me to go over there and talk to him. Would he remember me? Well, Zeke didn't... I break my eye contact and tears threaten to pour out of my eyes. I get up and run out of the dining hall. I run down the long, narrow, dark hallways of the compound. I throw myself against the wall, sniffling.
"Any ideas who Scarlett may be?"
"Well...there is this one girl. The transfer from Amity. She seems to act like a Dauntless in some ways. When she first arrived, when she jumped from the train I watched her tuck into a front roll. She was also the first jumper. And she also acts out in violence." Realization hits me..thats Eric's voice.
"Have you experienced this with her personally?" My eyes grow cold. Max.
"Yes." I cry out and slap a hand over my hand. All I hear is silence, then footsteps approach me.
Hello?!" Eric calls out. "Whoever is there come out!" I shrink against the wall trying to make myself as small as possible. I watch Eric and Max walk past me. I release a breath I didn't even know I was holding.
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"Eric!" I cry. I run over to him embracing him. I feel something cool press against my head. A gun. I stare into his steely gray eyes, realizing he will always be that heartless leader, and I was stupid for loving him. "Please... Don't do this... I love you!" I cry, shrieking.
"Be brave." He growled. He clicked his gun in place, and I count to ten. At 6, the life that was once held in my eyes, fades away, like it was never really there in the first place... and perhaps, it wasn't.
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Sweat and tears steak my face. I look over to who shook me out of my nightmare. It was the Erudite boy, Camden. I stare at him incredulously, as he continues to hold my hand. He clears his throat and releases my hand. I give him a fake smile, and it seems to calm him down. "Thank you..." I whisper. He just nods. This was the first time I have ever studied his face. He was actually quite handsome, in the intimidating way. He had hard features, and blue eyes, on the verge of gray. He smelled of peaches and mangos, just like my old faction. A wave of longing coursed through my stomach, and I immediately pushed it away. I throw myself over the bed and throw on sweats and a white tee. Today is the first day of combat. Tomorrow we will be fighting each other. I glance around the room nervously. I meet Peter's gaze, and I immediately regret it. He was steaming ear to ear. He must have seen everything. I walk out of the dorm rolling my eyes at him.
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"Hey have you seen Camden by any chance?" I look up at the dark boy, and immediately come face to face with Uriah. I feel my face go pale. "Are you okay?"
"I-I have to go..." I got up and shoved past Uri. I walk out of the dining hall and go straight to the training room. I enter the training room, taking in the mats, the punching bags, and brace myself for a long, and painful day. I sigh and go sit on a mat. I look up at the clock and notice we still have thirty minutes till training starts. I get up and walk over to the punching bag and I immediately start to throw myself at the bag. I feel all the anger melting away from the week. I punch until I no longer can. I collapse underneath my weight, crying uncontrollably. Why does my life have to be like this? I just want Peter, and I want my brothers! Why can't I just have an uncomplicated life? "You're special when it comes to Divergence." Tori's words flow back to me and I angrily get up and begin throwing myself back at the punching bag, tears streaking my face. Am I ever going to get over this overwhelming sadness that is eating away my life?
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"Why, exactly do you think you can't trust me?" I sigh, and turn my attention to Four.
"It's not just you, Four... I don't trust anyone. So don't take it personally."
"You should at least let your brother in... Doesn't he deserve that?" Four whispered.
"I only have a sister." I state showing no emotion. I felt myself being shoved against the round, red punching bag behind me. Four pushes all of his body weight against me so I can't escape.
"Your brother loves you! He can't take anymore of this crap, Scarlett! So figure yourself out!"
"You have no idea what I've been through, Four! Do you have any idea how hard it was leaving here?! Dying my hair, changing my name?! I left my whole life behind when I was just a little girl! I didn't even know I was leaving! I never even got to say goodbye... I thought I was coming back..." I growled, then a single tear welled up in my eye, and rolled down my cheek. "They don't care about me! If they did she wouldn't have told my brothers I jumped on the train wrong and fell to my death!"
"That is your mom! Not your brothers! Do you think it felt good for them to lose a sister then discover their mom was lying to them about her dying!"
"Imagine being the sister!" I growled and shoved him off me and stormed to the matts. I glance over to the clock. I sense a stare my way. I glance beneath the clock and my eyes lock with Peter's. His eyes are full of hatred, and disgust. All the initiates start to file in, and I glance to the board of the pairs on names deciding, who we will be fighting tomorrow. Peter vs Ash. My heart sinks. I glance over at Peter to find him craning his neck to look at the board. His eyes lock with mine and he smirks. I look up at the ceiling, praying that somewhere in his cruel heart, Peter still loves me.