sitting in the Livingroom feeling depressed because I'm lonely in a relationship sense, a playthrough of a game called little hope caused this short term sadness because I thought the girl with short hair was cute and somehow I managed to turn that into a self evaluation of how lonely and empty i feel, i feel like i should at least win a mental gymnastics medal for coming to that conclusion, It would be pretty neat though if I managed to get a tomboy gf with a pixie haircut but looking at my situation rn it seems like a lot to ask cuz I can barely hold a friendship together, hopefully I'll meet someone in the military because I don't want to be lonely for much longer than I have to. I managed to get a job interview in mcdonalds on the 9th of november, fuckin prayin that i dont mess it up somehow cuz i need the job otherwise i'll be on benefits and i dont want that to happen, I've been trying to get back into my fitness routine cuz i fucked my ankle up like 3 weeks ago and it still has an affect on it but its not a be all end all situation, just need to tough it out and ill be fit again
