The Black Death

Chapter two

The unspeakable events

"Hello Miss. Marshal, I heard you got sent to the padded room a couple of day ago" the doctor say
"I did, she shouldn't have threw food on me" I say with no remorse
"You bite her ear off cause she threw food at you?" He says intrigued
"Shall we get back to the story doctor?" I ask
"Yes lets" the doctor says getting his pen ready to take notes

A month and a half after everything Alex and I decided to get away from land and take a month long Cruise, to collect our selves get back our humanity as much as we could. It worked only 10% but that ten percent did a lot, we got close again, we laughed together, cried together, didn't argue once. We were happy for the first time in a while not truly happy but happy, we smiled but we were still dying inside it's only been two months but we kept by each other stayed by each other. The most healthiest thing we've done since what happened.
We surprised our friends coming home we haven't seen them in a while so it was a good thing we did, we needed them. I forgot my purse in Alex car, he went out side to go get it next thing I know I heard squealing tires and gun shots I rush out side to see Alex leaned up against his car bloody I tried to go to him but KC and missy stopped me holding me back as Jordan and josh went to him and called the cops. Cops and ambulance came and I was still freaking out I saw the man I grew up with, loved, had a child with dead in front of me and I couldn't do anything to help him. When we got to the hospital the doctor told us that they couldn't save him that they tried everything but I knew that was a lie. First I lost my daughter and now Alex, life was just going down hill from there.
I started smoking weed and drinking to forget the pain, partied every night barley went to school became a completely different person I still had my friends, until they turned there backs on me as well but I deserved it but the old me was gone forever she died under all the pain, sadness, and guilt and there's no bringing her back. Five month later I met this guy named Thomas he was a really great guy, until you got him angry he would hit me till I blacked out, Leave me with cuts and bruises but I knew who I was and I didn't let it lasted unlike Kevin, Thomas sits in jail.
When he got arrested I started going back to school doing better for my self but two weeks in I get raped by my friends boyfriend in an abandoned house, then he told her I came onto him and we fought about it, in person and on social media after that it seemed like nothing was getting better everyone at school put me as a target I didn't know who was my real friend or just messing with me, people pretended to like me to use me, guys pretended to be interested in me to get in my pants or to humiliate me, I wasn't even safe at home cause of my phone I was bullied for what I was wearing or who I talked to, I moved back in with my dad but our relationship wasn't friendly we argued and he wasn't happy with anything I did or I couldn't get his attention for anything, nothing was good enough but I had my grandfather he was my best friend. I told him everything and he made me laugh when I was upset, let me cry on his shoulder, only person in the house that remembers that I don't eat chicken, that helped me with school and homework. Took me shopping when I needed clothes, I did everything right in his eyes. He was my light in the dark, my voice that told me to keep going, when I tried to end my life in high school it was his voice that told me to keep going keep pushing to keep moving forward.
One Halloween clowns were terrorizing the country and I'm afraid of clowns people that I thought were my friend messaged me as a clown and tried to scare me said they knew were I lived and took pictures of my house. Left things at my door and stood on the other side of the street till we called the cops, they would throw eggs at my house, break windows.

"And they did this every night?" the doctor asked
"For the entire month of October" I said

Then the unthinkable happened I've lost my two older brothers, tommy and Jesse. Tommy died while he was over seas, Jesse couldn't take living with out his twin brother so he ended his life. Both of them leaving there wives widowed and there babies with out fathers, no matter what it seemed like I kept losing people I cared about but I thought it couldn't get any worse then this....right?
But I did meet some old friends that I didn't talk to for a while, she was the only true friend I had. Her other friends didn't like me but she stayed by my side threw everything, besides my papa she became my bestfriend, then I started dating this boy and it was such a toxic relationship that She knew but I didn't till the last moment, he was awful to me we were constantly on and off Always arguing.
then I lost my bestfriend, my grandfather. I was meant to pick up my brother but I got held up so I asked him to do it but then I heard he fell on the stairs and hit his head pretty bad, It was hard to hold my self together, to stay calm but it was hard. The next day......he died in his sleep. That's was the day a cracked mirror shattered and I sunk into darkness with no way out, I tried to go to my boyfriend but he wanted nothing to do with it and left me but before he left he told me to get over my grandfathers death that I blamed my self for.

'Loud banging and yelling coming from outside'
"Never mind that, please continue its probably nothing" the doctor said
"Sometimes it's never nothing doctor" I said before continuing

Everything just kept falling apart on me and I didn't know what to do, it was so dark and lonely but no one noticed everyone had to make sure my brother and grandmother was okay, no one had time for me. I stopped eating, sleeping, didn't talk to anyone, locked my self in my room for days. When people asked how I was I told them I was fine. I knew they didn't really want to know, no one likes sad people my ex proved that. You can't fix a shattered mirror there's no point to even bother with it.

I started my first job I loved it at first but the people were horrible and slow. I did get along with one person tho, he was very nice and sweet helped me when I needed it. We hung out outside of work all the time but I didn't like him like that just the attention but one day he starts to touch me I tell him to stop but he doesn't then he puts his hand down my pants. Next thing I knew he took my pants off and did what he did, I left not saying a word never telling anyone, told my self I wanted it but in the back of my head I knew I didn't, I knew what happened and now I turned into the girl that lets her self get raped that's defenseless, that's weak. I just kept going further and further into the darkness never getting out. My personality slowly changes into this really mean and hateful girl. That was the only way I knew to keep people from hurting me, to keep guys from hurting me again.

"Did you ever tell anyone what happened to you?" The doc asked
"I didn't see the need to" I replied "I thought I would get in trouble or judged and all I wanted is for it to go away at the time" I said
"Did you stay at the job?" The doc asked
"No I left after a month or so" I said

'Someone comes in and the doc and I look at the door to see Malcolm and John'

"Sorry sir but Perez is trying to cut his arm off and said he won't stop till he sees you" he said in a panic

"Okay I'm coming, Miss. Marshal please stay here I'll be right back" he says before he leaves the room

After a while the doctor comes back in

"Sorry about that looks like will have to cut our session today short but we'll make up for it next week, you'll be walking your self back I trust you won't do anything foolish" he says standing at the door
"Yes doctor" I say getting out of my chair "oh and doctor I promise everything will become clear at the end" I say then leave his office to get back to my room

As I walk there I hear someone call my name I turn to see it's that girl I bite ear off. She coming at me in full force but I let her tackle me and get a few hits in cause Malcolm and John came and took her away and brought me to my room. If I have hit her they would have brought me to the padded room again, Rather her then I. I get in my bed and fall asleep but toss and turn the whole night cause my demons are awake so that means I am too