The Black Death

Chapter five

The good times

I still remember all my happy memories, believe it or not I do have them. Like the time Luna first opened her eyes and we saw her big blue eyes for the first time, she loved looking around not focusing on one thing. She was a happy baby only cried when she was hungry or needed to be changed, I remember the first time she grabbed Alex's finger his smile was so big.
The time I graduated early with honors my grandfather was actually there for that, the time my dad actually told me he's proud of me and my grandfather was so happy for me. We went out to celebrate nothing big of course but something we did together.
I remember when I saw my baby cousin for the first time and then we became best friends, can never be sad when he was around
The time I became friends with my best friend again and the time I met another great friend Lana, and the time I made a friend that became more

Happy memories is what people have to hold on to when they are in the dark losing them can make you explode or do things you cannot explain, when you hold on to the people that try to make you smile when you don't realize it. Like I said I like being alone but being alone so much and for so long that you don't see the holes in the darkness that help you get out, cause your demons keep whispering in your ear telling you it's a bad idea and you trust them cause you haven't gotten hurt. What would happen if you did see a whole and got out of the dark, you would be scared, worried, frightened that you would get hurt some how and some way and you know you can't take anymore heart break or pain but it's the good memories that keeps you from falling back in but only temporarily cause with all the worries you have it's hard for you to make new memories cause the old memories start to fade and you start to worry more that the person you share the memories with star to get sick and tired of you and you just don't blame them.
I remember my friends and I snuck into an abandoned asylum and just explored, we scared each other and had fun making up stories on every room on what kind of patient were in that room.
I remember sitting around the living room with my family and play never have I ever and being the 1-3rd person out
I remember my three best friends and I went out to dinner and we had the best time laughing, gossiping, telling jokes

But when your close to the end that's what you hope people hold on too a happy memory of you cause you want them to move on and live there lives.

"But your family and everyone can't" the doctor said
"No cause of my cousin not me doctor" I said
"What makes you think your cousin did the crime?" he asked
"Cause he told me, he told me he was going to do it but I thought he was just drunk talking but I forgot drunk people don't lie" I said
"Do you remember anything happy from your child hood?" The doctor asked
"I don't remember much happiness from my child hood doctor, my step family verbally and physically abused me and they're the reason why I'm scared of basements and the dark and probably the reason why I'm so submissive but who I'll ever know" I said
I remember when my friend and I went to this dog place at the mall and played with this little guy for two hours
I remember so many happy memories that it makes me smile want it all back
" I'm sorry doctor but I feel to tired to finish today I would like to go back to my room" I said getting out of my chair
" very well sleep well Miss.marshal" he said