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C H A P T E R 12

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L E O N I D

I lost it again. . .

I tried to control it, I really did, or at least to learn how to, but I just couldn't. The only way to calm myself down was Al, but I didn't want her to get hurt due to my extreme aggressiveness. I hurt her a lot already and everytime when I calmed down, I was overwhelmed with guilt and regret.

After we moved away from her, mine and Max's anger issues got a lot worse. I even sliced someone's throat when we were trying to torture them once, because he said something about Alaska and that triggered an attack.

I call them attacks, because that's pretty much what I do when I lose control. I attack people and hurt them without stopping. I cannot control it and sometimes I can't even remember what I did. I once went to a therapist, but he said it's just due to stress and with some pills it should calm down.

It never did, though.

The kiss in the cafeteria was the first time that Al kissed me to calm me down. It surprisingly helped. The sudden action from her had caused me to stop what I was doing and to focus on her, which was what calmed me down, I guess.

Anyway, after school today, me and Max had to do some mafia related stuff. Well, we found out about some dirty business, in form of killing innocent, from a rather small, but dangerous gang, and we had to take care of it. Al wanted to come along, but she had to stay back a little, because of her annoying brothers. They couldn't know who we were, so we had to be careful around them.

If only we hadn't left her alone.

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A L A S K A

I walked down the street to the mansion and sighed as I slipped through the front door. Theodore and Mila, my sperm donor and stepmother, went on a business trip yesterday with some of the older brothers, so I was left alone with only the youngest of my so-called brothers.