Hey My name is Diamond Amora Smith
People either call me Amor, Dime, Mama, Or Lil Diabla. Yeah I do have a lot of nicknames but I guess It's cool
I live with my Dad and Brother, like I stay at both houses
I used to live with my mom... Until
Flashback
Nine year old me, Playing with my dolls in my doll house in my room, Until my mother came to the door saying 'Hey babygirl, It's time to take a shower' I was confused because it's 5:00 I don't shower until 7:00 but knowing my mom I didn't question her
I smile and say 'Okay mommy' I drop my dolls and head to the shower as my mom got my clothes, My mom then came in 5 minutes later and set the clothes on the sink as I got in the shower and my mom helped me shower
10 Minutes later I was done and my mom helped me put on my clothes and stuff like that, Then Me and her walk back to my room and she said 'Okay Diamond sit on your bed and wait for A minute' I then tilt my head a little out of confusion but still didn't question her and said 'Okay mommy'
I just sat there playing with my nails and dangling my feet, Minutes later a man walked into my room and started walking towards me, And me not being familiar with the face I tried to move away then I said 'W-where's my mommy?' The man just smirked at me and said 'Your so beautiful'
I then was standing up at this moment and the man was now grabbing on me as I struggle to get his hands off me I then yell 'Mommy HELP!' the man then put his hand over my mouth and slammed me on my bed and he started trying to take his pants off I then started kicking and Crying hard I then felt a huge pain on the side of my face, This man just punched me
I then yell 'Please Mommy HELP!' I then look around the room and I spot my mom Standing there watching Me struggle, Her daughter. I then felt my shorts off and a huge pain on my private part I then cried harder and tried to push the man off only for him to hold my wrist down on the bed and move his hips against mine harder and faster
Causing me to Scream and Cry and for my mom to laugh as I scream for her help or anyone's...But no guess what I got? Raped as my mom watched, and guess what my mom got? Money, Yes, she used me for money.
After the man was done I cried and felt horrible about myself. This wasn't the last time My mom let it counited and I continue to Yell and scream and cry for her help but she didn't care matter of fact she started abusing me after because I was crying to much for her or because It was my fault my dad and brother left us
And this happen to me for 7 Years Until my dad found out and moved me out of her house...Yeah 7 years of getting raped by random men and getting abuse by my mother, Mentally, Physically, and Verbally, The person who birthed me, yeah her
Flashed back over
So I have a question, What would you do If you got raped and your mother watch you as you screamed, yell and cried for help for 7 years?
Another question, What would you do if your own mother abused you and you begged for her to stop but she didn't listen for 7 years?
Last Question, What would you do if you Got Mentally, Physically, and Verbally abused by your mother for 7 years?
Well me what I did was, I went mute and numb, I went mute because I felt like when I screamed and yelled and cried to my mother she didn't hear me, or it's like she didn't wanna hear my voice so she tuned it out, So I feel if she can do that, anybody can so what's the point of even wasting my voice like I did for 7 years I wasn't going to continue to do that so I went mute
I can speak I just chose not to but I still communicate as in shaking my head or nodding my head or pointing or stuff like that
I went numb... well that should be obvious
I'm actually in a gang well my dad's gang which my brother in his name is Toosii, I go by Lil Diabla... I got that name because I killed a lot of people not just people period, but bad people or enemy's , and I also got the name because people find it scary the I can kill with no emotion, see what I mean by numb, But I also got the name because when I get mad I shake and my eyes turn red
It's not a power thing it just does that
So yeah I'm numb and a Mute
Until...
A/N: I feel like this is going to be my best book no Ccap
