Slytherin Marriage

chapter 6

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It was the next morning, and I still felt sore from last night.

It was five in the morning and the sun hadn't come out yet so I got up and put my clothes on before anyone came in, I still had a reputation to uphold after all.

Even though I could barely walk, I managed to sneak out without waking up draco.

I did want to continue sleeping in his arms, but it could be very awkward, what am i supposed to say after having sex with someone who i’ve known since we were infants.

I went up to my room so I could shower and go to sleep for the day. Trying to avoid what I am going to say to Draco if I see him.

Not having energy to even walk. My legs were still sore.

“Scarlet, wake up!” a voice woke me up. I looked up to none other than pansy.

“What do you bloody want? I'm tired, let me sleep.” I responded, not having the energy to talk to her.

“I need to talk. I don’t know who else i'm supposed to talk to about this. I don’t want to bother draco either, since it's more about feelings and all that.” she said more quietly and with a serious, yet worrying voice. 

“Alright what is it? What do you need to talk about that is so important?” I said slowly sitting up from my comfy bed.

“Here, I brought you coffee and some breakfast.” she said putting a tray of delicious looking food in front of me.

“So, I sort of like luna. I fancy her actually. And i don’t know how to tell her how i feel. She’s a ravenclaw. I'm a slytherin. We are both GIRLS!! I want to tell her but what if my parents find out. I could be sent to an insane asylum. Or maybe sent to another school!”

 She started chattering non-stop on how her parents would react, on how luna would react, how she was going to tell her in the first place.

She wasn’t sure why she even felt that way about girls.

I listened either way, since it was worthy of my time, and it was important for her.

She was figuring out what she wanted. Who she was. Pansy started crying non-stop.

All I did was hug her and told her. “It’s going to be alright. I'm here for you. Let it all out. It’s ok” 

An hour went by when she finally calmed down. “Im sorry, i shouldn’t have made you deal with this. I just don’t know what to do. What am i going to do?” she said wiping away her tears only to be replaced by others.

How am I supposed to answer that question? I’ve never had to deal with something like this.

Everything in my life has been set out and planned by my parents. From what I eat, to even my love life.

I never questioned their intentions. I never broke the rules, never spoke when not called upon, never even had a choice on who to kill. She didn't deserve what I did to her.

I was just the perfect little girl. I never got questioned on who I am. They all just fear me, not because of what I've done, but what my father has done.

Now, I'm realizing I can make my own decisions, I can feel any emotion I want. I don’t need my father to make my decisions for me.

He has lived his life. I wasn’t born to be a follower. I was born to be a leader, a ruler.

“Pansy, Do what YOU want, don’t let your parents stop you from being yourself. Be your own person, make your own mistakes. Let luna know how you feel. Take risks. Go on adventures.” I said looking straight into her eyes, my hand on her shoulder to make sure she listens.

 “Don’t make the same mistakes I did. Now Go! Tell her how you feel!” i said pushing her off the bed leading her to the door, With a big bright smile on my face, making her smile too.

“Your right, Scarlet riddle! I will tell her! I will not let my parents stop me!” she said running out of the room.

“I AM PROUD OF MYSELF!!!”

she yells from what appears to be coming from the common room. 

“I'm a good person for that."

"Yeah. I sure am.” I say to myself out loud. 

I finish eating the food pansy brought and stayed the whole day in bed. Not wanting to go to class.

***THE NEXT DAY***

I had yet to receive news on how it went with pansy telling luna how she feels about her, but that was not as worrying as what the fuck i was going to say when i see draco.

I spent the entire day yesterday successfully avoiding draco by hiding in my room. 

I wasn’t the first i had sex or anything, i just never had sex with someone i knew.

Usually it's some random guy I hook up with while either being high, or being drunk.

I never learned their names, nor ever saw them again. 

This time i couldn’t avoid it.

I know draco. I was practically raised with him. He knew almost everything about me. From my favorite color, down to my favorite liquor.

What the hell are you supposed to bloody say to someone you know everything about to?

Why isn’t there a fucking book about it.

Anything for fuck sake!

I kept overthinking about what to say. Prancing around back and forth around the room.

They seriously need to make a fucking book about it!

How about like,

‘What To Say After Sex 101’ or something. 

“Maybe, if i try to ignore the whole situation. Things might go back to how they used to be...”

I say to my reflection in the mirror. When I looked closely at my reflection...

“AAAAHHHH!!!"

"Are these wrinkles! On my face! Bloody hell!” I scream.

“Why do this to me! What did I do to deserve this!”

I continue, practically about to start crying.

Suddenly I hear a knock at the door.

Who could it be?