Can't Have A Beat Without A Bassist (Ficman BoyxBoy) [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 5: Confessing

Chapter 5: Confessing

RYAN'S POV

After another week of dreams, I called up Ron after getting out of the shower and taking care of yet another "situation."

"Hey dude!" Ron answered. God his voice was so se-wait, what am I thinking?

"H-hi" I said but it came out more of like a nervous stutter. Why was I nervous talking to Ron?

"Everything alright?" He asked, concerned.

"Fi-fine" DAMNIT! STOP FUCKING STUTTERING RYAN! I took a deep breath, composed myself physically and mentally before speaking again. "Ron, I need to talk to you, meet at Starbucks in 10?" I asked.

"Sure thing Ry, see you later" He said and hung up. I threw my phone down in frustration and pulled on my wet hair, laying on my back. I got up and walked to the bathroom and started brushing my hair as my flat iron got hot. I started flat ironing my hair and started getting frustrated that it wasn't perfect. It then hit me that I was just going to meet Ron, an old friend, a brother. I never worried about my looks around him.

Fuck it. I'm in love with Ronnie Ficarro. I slipped on a jacket and pulled the hood up. I applied eyeliner and slipped on jeans before heading to my car and driving to starbucks.

As I was driving, my mind wandered.

"Ron, I love you" He just glared at me and his hands balled into fists.

"What?"

"I said I love you Ron!"

"Wait, you're in love with me?" He asked and I rolled my eyes with a sigh.

"Yes Ron!"

"Dude! That's fucking sick!" Ron almost shouted, standing up. "We're like fucking brothers and I'm straight!"

"I'm sorry but I couldn't hold this back any longer!"

"Just....just get away from me! Don't talk to me!" He shrieked, storming out of the restraunt. I burried my head into my arms and burst out in sobs.

I felt a tickle on my cheek and quickly wiped away a tear that had fallen. I looked into the rearview mirror and saw I had a couple more that escaped my eyes. I quickly wiped them away and blinked away the others, continuing to drive.

I was 5 minutes late and saw Ron's car was already in the parking lot. I parked and walked into the coffee shop. I spotted Ron and avoided him as I walked up to order my coffee. I waited on the other side of the shop for them to call my name.

"RYAN!" The lady shouted and I got up to get my coffee. I took a couple of sips before heading over to where Ron was sitting.

"What's up with the hood?" Ron asked as I sat down.

"My hair's all fucked up." I stated. We sat in an awkward silence for a while, sipping our drinks. I kept staring at him and when he would look, I'd look at my cup or the table or something.

"So, what'd you wanna talk about?" He asked, breaking the awkward silence after 5 minutes. I took a nervous shaky breath and put down my hood. I bit my lip so hard that I could taste blood.

"I desperatley need to tell you something but I'm afraid on how you'll react."

"Dude, we're brothers! No matter what you tell me, I wont be mad at you." Not helping.

"Not helping" I mumbled and he cocked his head.

"Just tell me Ryan" He chuckled, leaning closer.

"Well... you know how we're going on tour in about a month?" He nodded. "Well, I'm bi." I stated and he had a confused look on his face.

"Is that what you had to tell me?"

"Yes" NO!

"You being bi isn't that big of a deal Ry-"

"Thatnotallthere'smore" I said, all at once. "There's more Ron" I said again.

"Okay, go on."

"Well... I... like... somone in the urm band." I said, my leg shaking.

"Who?" He asked with a smile.

"His name starts with R" I said, getting more nervous with each word.

"Ronnie?!?!"

"No" He gave me a confused look.

"The other Ronnie" I said, hoping he would get it.

"The other Ron-"

"IT'S YOU RON!" I yelled but then covered my mouth. His jaw dropped and I held back so many tears.

"Umm what?" He asked in shock. I was speechless. "You-you like me?" I shoked my head and he looked confused.

"I don't like you Ron. I-Iloveyou" I said all at once again and he just stared at me. "I'm so sorry" I said, barley above a whisper. All of my dreams were coming back, making me want to burst into tears.

"I-I got to go. By-bye." He said before leaving.

"Fuck fuck fuck fuck" I told myself all the way home. I collapsed into my bed and bawled. Fucking emotions, screwed everything up for me.

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Listening to She's Country~ Jason Aldean

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