taylors lips connected with mine and I didn't know what to do. i didn't want to pull away, so I kissed back. our lips fit and moved together perfectly. I move my hands to his cheeks as he deepens the kiss. his tongue slid across my bottom lip asking for entrance that i granted right away.
after about a minute more of that, I pull away.
"I've wanted to do that for a while now." he whispers.
"me- me too." I admit. a moment of silence and staring in each other's lustful eyes past before taylor spoke again.
"stuff happened between me and ashley, it's a touchy subject for me. I'll tell you when it's the right time, I promise." he says.
"so give me a second chance? please."
a small smile tugs at my lips and I nod.
"of course, but don't screw this one up." i tease.
"I would never." he smiles.
"now, wanna ditch? we only have 7th period left anyways."
"sure, let's go to my house." I say grabbing his hand and holding it over the center consul. he puts the key in the ignition and pulls out of the school parking lot, driving down the old streets. as we drive i plug my phone into the aux cord and play 'show off' by somo. as it comes on taylor looks at me and smiles.
"you like this song?" he says furrowing his eyebrows.
"uh, yeah? is that a bad thing?" I ask slightly embarrassed.
"no, not at all. I love somo. it's hot you listen to him too." he smirks. I can already feel the blush taking over my cheeks so I turn my face and look out the window.
"I know you're blushing, you don't have to hide it. it's cute." he says rubbing my knuckles with his thumb, our hands still intertwined. I turn to him and smile. he flashes his perfect smile back, revealing his braces.
pretty soon after that we pull into my driveway and go inside.
"what do you wanna do?" he asks leaning on the kitchen counter.
"let's make cookies!" I smile.
"okay, get the stuff out because I have no idea where it's at." he says putting his hands up. I giggle before going through the cabinets and picking out the ingredients we needed.
i began to mix everything together as taylor sat on his phone typing away.
"hey, thanks for the help!" I say sarcastically.
"oh, sorry babe. my friends I met over the Internet all made a group conversation. apparently they're all coming to California to visit!" he says smiling which causes me to smile. im glad he's happy.
"oh cool. where do they live, and who are they exactly?" i giggle. he smiles and stands up in front of me, leaning his arms on the counter behind me.
"well, dillon and carter know them too. but there's 7 more of them. their names are cameron, nash and his brother hayes, Jack gilinsky, Jack Johnson, matt, aaron, and shawn." he explains.
"that's a lot of names. and why do two of them have the same one? im the one who has to learn them all." i whine. taylor burst out laughing and continues.
"hey calm down, you'll get used to it." he says laying his forehead on mine. I smile and before I know it his lips are on mine. our lips move together as he picks me up and places me on the counter. i wrap my arms around his neck and tangle my fingers in his hair. his tongue slides across my bottom lip asking for entrance but I deny, teasing him. he groan a little and grabs my butt causing me to gasp in his mouth, and he takes this as the perfect opportunity to slide his tongue in mine. I run my fingers through his messy hair, lightly tugging at it causing him to release a small moan. I smile into the kiss before breaking away, in need for air, sadly.
"you're beautiful." taylor breathes.
"you're amazing." I whisper back.
he plants a short and simple kiss on my lips before picking me up and carrying me upstairs. he throws me on the bed and climbs on top of me and before I can process it all he's ticking my sides, causing a fit of laughter.
"taylor- please-" I try to get out through the laughter.
"stop!" I laugh and scream at the same time.
"only if you kiss me again." he smirks, still tickling.
"f- fine! j-just stop!" I giggle. he laughs lays down beside me. I wipe the tears out of my eyes that formed while taylor tickled me. I turned my face to look at him and he had his lips puckered like a fish.
I immediately started laughing again and he sat there confused.
"what? is there something on my face?" he asked.
"no, you just looked stupid." i winked. he rolled his eyes before connecting our lips. it was a simple kiss, and I never wanted it to end but sadly the oven beeped.
"as much as I'd love to make-out with you all day, I have cookies to get out of the oven. and you have to figure out when your friends are coming!" I say jumping off the bed.
"fineee." he whined standing up. we both walked downstairs and I got the cookies out of the oven. taylor eventually left and went back to his house.
I took a shower and changed into grey under armor sweat pants and a black crewneck that had a white heart on it and said 'wifi' inside. my slightly damp blonde hair flowed down my back as I looked in the mirror. I've never been happy with myself, but I've tried to block it out because I over think a lot of things and when I do, it gets bad. i go into really deep depression. the only person who really knows about it is brooke. she's been there through it all.
I've never harmed myself in any way, but I've thought about it. any time I do i talk to brooke and she talks me out of it. people always say best friends are life savers, and mine is. literally.
I zone out of my thoughts and brush through my hair one more time before shutting off the light and going downstairs to the living room couch.
my mom still isn't back from wherever the hell she is. she's on business trips so much. I can't even remember the last time she was home for more than two days. and as for my dad, well that's a long story..
I turn on Netflix and pull out my phone to text brooke.
To brooke;
dude come over and hang out with me
from brooke;
like right now?
to Brooke;
yes and hurryy im bored.
after that she didn't reply, which meant she was on her way. I don't bother to clean up. my house is pretty clean and even if it was dirty it's not like she would mind.
***
"okay, what should we watch?" I say taking a huge bite of my pizza.
"oh! let's watch white chicks!" brooke yells.
I throw a couch pillow at her even though she's pretty close to me.
"im right here you don't need to scream!" I yell back at her causing us both to laugh. I turn on white chicks and we watch it. about half way through the movie my phone vibrates and I look at it.
from taylor;
hey! so all the guys are coming on Friday. I have to pick them up from the airport after school.
to taylor;
sounds good.
from taylor;
okay, goodnight beautiful. ♡
to taylor;
goodnight taylor. :)
i lock my phone and look over to see brooke sleeping. i soon roll over to my side and shut my eyes, falling into a deep sleep.
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Fanfiction"I knew he was toxic, but something about him made me stay."
