5sos boyxboy texts

Part 10

::Mashton:: ::finding out::

Ashton finds out that Michael self harms

Warning self harm and depression included read at your own expense

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Ashton: hey Mikey I was looking for my razor on your side of the sink today and I found a few loose blades in the toothbrush holder thing, you know anything about that?

Mikey: uh no

Ashton: Mikey what's wrong?

Mikey: nothing ash

Ashton: come on what's wrong, have you been..

Ashton: do you self harm?

Ashton: well

Mikey: Uhm

Ashton: you do don't you!?

Mikey: uh yeah

Ashton: Mikey, why?

Mikey: I'm just sad I guess

Ashton: how long have you been doing it?

Mikey: um 2 and a half years

Ashton: that's the same amount of time that we have been together did I do something?

Mikey: no you did nothing ash

Ash: you need to stop

Mikey: I don't want to

Ash: why??

Mikey: because ash it's my only escape from the reality that is this horrible cruel earth and basically I don't even feel the pain anymore so it's not doing me any harm at all it's like drawing and personally I think my scars are a work of art okay

Ash: Mikey I used to self harm too but with the help of my friends I was able to stop isn't that right? do you remember what I said to you on our first ever date?

Mikey: you said that you would help me when I fell and you would always be there for me

Ash: yes and right now you are falling really deeply into this black hole that I've been in before Michael and I swear it's hard to get out of and it takes two people so you need to let me help you

Mikey: but I don't want help Ashton I want to keep doing this because its an escape as I already said please ash just leave me alone

Ash: you know what? fine just go, cut as deep as you want and as much as you want because I've tried to help you but you won't let me.. if you kill yourself by accident or on purpose you will hurt so many people Michael including me

Ash: Michael answer me

Mikey: Ashton you need to get over here now

Ash: why

Mikey: I didn't answer ash oh my god please I need you Ashton

Ash: Mikey what happened

Mikey: ash no there's blood everywhere I didn't listen please ash get over here now

Ash: Mikey oh my god you cut to deep didnt you? I'm coming now I promise

Ash: Mikey

Ash: where are you?

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Hiya
I liked this idea so much that I have started writing a fanfiction about it but um in that one they aren't gay they are just really good friends and basically ash finds out about mikeys cutting so yeah when I publish it I will tell you!

Stay cool my little cucumbers ^•^