Treat You Right (Troyler AU)

ch. 4 // let me in

Troye POV-
Present Day

"It's okay now troye, it's going to be fine." Tyler soothed as he embraced me.

His touch felt so familiar, so... comfortable. I nuzzled my head into his neck, sobbing quietly.

"I...I've missed you so much Ty..." I whispered in his ear. Without looking, I could sense his growing smile. In response, I smiled into his shoulder and hummed quietly. In that moment, everything felt in piece. It was like finding the missing part of a puzzle, satisfying. I bathed in the warmth of his arms wrapped around my tortured torso, my bruises aching slightly.

He moved his hand down a bit lower, hitting my most recent injury from... well... yeah. I winced gently, hoping he didn't feel it, but he did.

He sighed quietly. "If I had known what Connor was doing to you, I would've been there for you sooner."

I took my head off of his shoulder and backed away from his touch, leaving a pang of guilt when I saw his forlorn expression. "Even after what I said to you?" I whimpered, walking backwards until I hit the freezing tile wall of the shower. Tyler scanned my body up and down once again, before speaking up.

"Troye, I hope you know that I never stopped loving you." He approached me, getting closer within each step. In his eyes I saw love and... lust. "Why don't you just leave Connor and be with me again? We were happy together." He whispered.

My smile altered a little as my eyes darted back and forth to the door of the bathroom. I had to get out of here and apologize to Connor, or else he would hurt me again. My easiest evacuation plan would be to just run, but I couldn't leave Tyler stranded here like I did months before. I had to lie, and crush him so he would let me go without hesitation. My chest rose up and down as I took deep breaths, trying to come up with a convincing escape route lie. Should I tell him I need to pee? No too awkward. What about having to get home for dinner. Cliche and non-believable. My eyes fluttered open at the most brilliant idea for a lie. I needed to make Tyler let me go back to Connor. I reached for my shirt lying on the tiled floor and nonchalantly pulled it over my head, preparing myself for the words I had to say. I had to sound strong and believable. Okay... here we go.

"I don't think you understand C...onnor and I's relationship..." I said, my lip shaking slighty. Well there goes the strong voice I intended. "We're in lo...l..love." With instinct, my teeth bit my bottom lip, forcing the wobbling to pause. I can't do this. I can't be strong. I can't be brave. Fear poured through my veins at the though of Connor's haunting words that reappeared in my mind. If you love him again Troye... I will hurt both of you greatly."

I shook my head, rubbing my temples with my hands. I cannot let Tyler get hurt again because of me... but at the same time I was hurting him without meaning to. Realizing Tyler hadn't responded to my outburst, I figured I had to look at him now.

His expression was empty. He just stood there, arms by his side, frowning. A tear escaped his eye, sending a pang of hurt to my heart. He looked fucking miserable.... but so did I.

"So, the one who loves you, hurts you, tears you down, and doesn't comfort you?" He questioned, cheeks red and puffy. I shifted my weight uncomfortably. Damn, how do I respond to that?

"He's more than that, if you kno..know him like I..I do." I shook. Faking a smile and laugh while looking into a broken boy's eyes. He was not amused the slightest bit. Immediatley I wiped the smile from my features and walked out of the shower, spinning on my heel to face him one last time before my departure. "I'm sorry Till...Tyler. I can't have you hurt again because of me. Only I should feel pain, emotional and physical. Not you." I spoke. His eyes met mine again. They looked lifeless, dull, and flat out shattered. I had broken him again, but yet, wasn't that the plan?

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HEY HEY HEY!!! iT me. and yes im sorry for not updating. ive been so busy lately ofmdkmkfkk. but yeah i hope you enjoy this chapter bc ;(((( and just a heads up, it kinda goes downhill from here. love you all <333 - lauren