Sophia's Twilight Diaries

The Cullen's

Sophia's POV

I have never felt so alone. In all my years on this earth, I have always had at least one of brothers with me. Now, I have neither. Damon is gone. I don't know whether he is gone forever, but he is not here now and hasn't been since the other side went down. Stefan is gone. He was supposed to be looking for a way to try and bring Damon back, but he is living his own life with a new girlfriend, not giving Damon or I a second thought.

Rik is still hanging around, trying his best to be like an older brother to me but it's just not the same. I miss my brothers, both of them! All I want is both of them back in my life, I don't even care if they are bossy, overprotective and overbearing at times, I would do anything to have them here with me.

Everyone else, Elena, Jeremy, Caroline, Enzo... they all seem to be just getting on with their lives, not that I blame them, but I just can't do it. Maybe Stefan had the right idea... Leaving. Getting away from it all. Starting a fresh. Maybe that will help me come to terms with my new life.

I know Rik won't like the idea of me going off alone, so I will have to just leave. No goodbyes. No thank yous. No well wishes. The thought of leaving him behind makes a stabbing feeling in my heart, yet it is what I have to do. It's not fair on him to have to put up with me under some obligation to Damon. It's fine for him to move on with his own life without having to take care of me.

With my essentials packed, Damon's credit card in my pocket and a few keepsakes for when I feel down, I make my way to the airport in a cab, silently saying goodbye to all the friends that I have made and the place I have called home for the last few years.

The earliest flight available is to Washington, so I buy myself a ticket and wait to be called.

Stepping out of the airport in Washington, I breathe a heavy sigh. With nowhere to go and no plans I have made, I google search for a hotel close by so I can consider my options, what my next steps are going to be. My only previous thoughts was to get away, now it's time to make some plans.

I book myself in to The White House Suites. It's nice, but very big. Too big for just me. Even though my flight was only short, I feel exhausted. More mentally than anything else, but I still need a rest. I quickly fall asleep on the super king size bed.

I wake up feeling refreshed. I still feel a great sense of depression, but at least I am well rested. I lay still, considering my options. Retrieving my phone so I can plan my next move, I see missed calls and messages off Rik. There is also a couple off Elena and Caroline but I don't even pay them any thought. It is Rik's ones I bother with.

After listening to the voicemails and read the text, it's pretty much what I expected. Him demanding to know where I am. What I am playing at. All of that shit. I flight mode my phone and connect to the hotels wifi.

Unsure of what to search, I Googled the worst place in Washington to live. A place called Forks appeared on my screen. It's a small town, not many people. Known to be the wettest place in the continental US. It sounds the way I feel. Miserable. It seems perfect for me right now.

A few hours later I arrive in Forks. It's exactly as I imagined it would be. Cold. Wet. Dreary. Perfect. I quickly search for a hotel near by whilst I figure out what I plan on doing.

I've spent the last 2 days looking for a more permanent place to live. I found a cute little apartment and compelled the landlord to rent it to me. It's got 2 bedrooms, a good size living room and kitchen and the bathroom is small but it's good enough for me.

I made the decision to enrol in the local high school. I know what you're thinking, high school is the worst, but it's a bit of normality and I really need that right now. It's what I have always done when moving to a new place with my brothers. It seems like the right thing to do for now.