George Miller remembered when he was at home and couldn't wait to go college. That wasn't a special day. Just another Tuesday. Just another day in the worst pain of his life. Another day of wanting to escape. Nothing special.
YOU'RE NOTHING SPECIAL.
I'm nothing special...
YOU WERE MADE FOR ME, you belong to ME. ONLY I GET TO SEE YOU LIKE THIS. Only I GET TO TOUCH YOU LIKE THIS.
I don't want you to touch me... just leave me alone... I want to feel safe
It's not your place to decide anything. Only I know what's best for you. Just lay there and relax, let me do this for you... I can make you feel so good...
Joji spring awakening in a cold sweat. Hyperventilating and checking his surroundings for the monster that continues to haunt him. Nowhere to be seen. He was safe.
Joji looked to his side for Ian, seeing that he is peacefully sleeping with soft snores. Arm draped along Joji's waist. He removed his arm and left the bed, getting dressed to go for a run at 3:00 AM.
Nights like this are more frequent when he's stressed of course but what could be stressing him? School, anxiety, his relationship with Ian? Whatever the case, Ian seems really attracted to Joji's insatiable sex drive. And Joji feels trapped in his own body to the point where he'd rather not have sex at all. Lacking the heart to tell Ian as well, he stays silent because he's fallen deeply in love with Ian and would do anything for him.
Joji wrote in his phone notes, the sex makes his skin crawl before and afterwards. But that leaves only the option to submit to his insanity, the personality that is fueled by sex. Joji feels powerless against himself and feels terrified and disappointed. If Ian finds out...
Hell leave you like the sack of shit you are
Don't pity yourself just take it like you deserve.
Keep your mouth shut and behave
You wouldn't want us to get mad
Do as your told,
Remember, George...
YOU WERE MADE TOR ME
I OWN YOU
I DECIDE!-
Joji lost focus and his ankle buckled. One moment he was and the sidewalk, and the next few paces lead him to smack his face into a tree, falling backwards and hitting his head. He laid unconscious as a bystander called an ambulance.
"Today is your birthday, lucky you!" The physician grinned cheerfully.
"Yeah I must've forgot." Joji lied.
"Any plans to celebrate?"
"... Visiting family."
"That's great! Do you see them often?"
"Once in a while. Everyone is so busy. My older brother... he's the busiest. He still makes time for me though."
"Sounds like you have a special bond! How sweet."
"Yeah... he's very special to me." Joji smiled fondly on the outside, replaying this woman's face brutally smashed against the wall in his mind.
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Crazy Boy ~ Jojian
FanfictionJoji grew up in an unstable environment. Because of that he became a little unhinged when it came to certain things. He feels nothing. He feels empty. Ian changes all of that when he comes into his life. But he doesn't know what he's getting himself...
