But I Need You || l.h.

Chapter 26

For the next few weeks, Sarah ignored me. Every read reciept should've told me that she didn't want to talk to me, but I refused to let that stop me. I called her every other day and texted her every day. All my tweets seemed to be about her. I couldn't get her out of my mind. I also couldn't deal with anyone else. Any time Calum or Ashton tried to talk to me, I would push them away. Michael almost never bothered, he seemed to be too amused with my suffering. 

Every Friday night Calum would come ask me to come out with them, but every night I refused. What was the point of going out and finding some random girl if it wasn't going to mean anything? What was the point if I wasn't going to remember her name the next day? What was the point if she wasn't going to drink wine with me at 2 am and make me laugh over dumb things that I had never thought about? What was the point if she wasn't Sarah?

Exactly. 

There was none. 

Which gave me all the reason to sit in my room and sulk. 

Another thing that gave me a reason to sit in my room and sulk was me overhearing a conversation between Michael and Ashton about how he and Sarah had gone on a date. After Michael had left, no doubt to go fuck my girlfriend, I had called Ashton in, grilling him for details on Sarah and Michael. Ashton had insisted it was only one date, but still the jealousy hit me like a bus. 

On the most recent Friday, five weeks after my encounter with Sarah and 1 week after I heard about her and Michael going out, Calum came into my room with his phone. "I'm about to leave, but someone wants to talk to you?" I felt my heart speed up and my hope lift a bit, but when I looked at Calum he shook his head. 

I frowned but took the phone anyway. 

"Luke?" Macie.

"Hey, Mace," I sighed, "I suppose Calum told you?"

"Yeah, he did. He also mentioned that you haven't had an alcoholic beverage in about a month."

"A month and a week," I corrected her. 

"That's amazing, who are you?" 

"I haven't gone out either," I added.

Macie stayed silent. I was beginning to think the call dropped when she spoke up again, "You're really hung up about her aren't you?"

"Yeah, I am," I confessed. "Has she told you anything? What are my chances? I heard about her date with Michael."

"Well first off that was just it. It was one date. She thought maybe it would help her get over you, but he reminds her too much of you, so she stopped speaking with him."

I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding, "Thank god, but what about me? What are my chances? You still haven't told me."

Macie stayed quiet again but this time it was different. I could feel that it was different. 

"Luke," she sighed through the phone, "You need to know that Sarah is different. She's a genuine girl. She's smart too, she's not going to put up with your bullshit, no matter how sincere you apologize. I can't really tell you exactly what she said, but your chances aren't looking too good. I'm sorry."

I thought about what she was saying. I had blown it. I lost her. "Thank you Mace."

"Luke-" 

But I hung up. I handed Calum his phone back and wished him a fun night. He thanked me and walked out of the room. 

- - - - - - - 

After the guys had been gone for a good hour, I pushed myself out of bed. I walked into the bathroom and looked my reflection in the mirror. After splashing water on my face a few times, I pulled my shirt over my head and tossed it aside. I stared at my appearance, kinda freaked out with how I looked. My skin looked paler than usual and my face appeared defeated.