Okay so I'm gonna try my best to make a coherent and logical explanation for this trainwreck that happens to be a rant I am writing at 4:28 AM
So~ I quit Mineplex about a month ago. To be honest, I don't know if I will go back or not. This is the longest break I've taken since the end of 2015- that break lasted almost two years, but it was unintentional. This time, I am deliberately trying to distance myself from the server.
This is a choice I made in the heat of the moment, but I haven't gone back on it yet. Sometimes I think about playing on the server again, but I resist. I think it will be better if I stayed away. I know that I'm not upsetting anyone by leaving. At the time I left, my username was 5NightsAtGhosts. That might seem familiar to some people, or they might remember Dinnersaur_ or _NameTag_ because I had those names earlier for quite a while.
But trust me, I was not well respected or well known, even for a level 90 that had been on for over five years. Maybe that's my fault- I never really spoke to anyone on the server unless spoken to first. But I did have a forums account that I posted on quite a bit. Didn't gain much attention through that though, but doesn't matter. I didn't have a group of friends on there or anything, so no one to talk to and make me feel better and help me resolve my issue.
Now I'm going to get into the main reason why I quit- toxicity. I know, it seems kind of stupid. Like obviously, you can run into toxicity anywhere on the net, but Mineplex was just an overflowing cesspool of toxicity and shitty attitudes. I used to not really have a problem with it, but over the last year, my social contacts decreased and I became really, really, stressed. So the toxicity just slowly ate away at my brain and feelings. It's hard to deal with it when I don't get a lot of interaction outside my family or real life friends, but then countless people on an online game are consistently being toxic or abusive.
It's just kind of sad and I feel like that also kind of turned me into being a little toxic as well. Like I never intentionally wanted to have a bad attitude or anything, but if I'm having a really lousy day or I have energy for no reason, then I'm probably gonna end up trying to defend myself- but the problem with me defending myself is that it comes off as attacking the other person and being sarcastic and condescending- which I don't mean for, but it's easier to do that accidentally in a toxic environment such as PoisonPlex.
But toxicity isn't the only reason why I decided to quit. I was also annoyed at how some games weren't updated. First of all, I only played a few games, which were Super Smash Mobs, Speed Builders, Draw My Thing, sometimes Nano or mixed arcade. But my favorite game was SSM. That game hasn't been updated since January, 2018. Almost three years. The state it's in is deplorable. (I mean... not really, but... really.) SSM is a pretty popular game on the server, so I don't know why the devs turned their back on it for so long.
Honestly, pretty much the whole SSM community was fed up with waiting. Like mechanics in the game are broken, such as skeleton arrows bouncing off of people instead of hitting them. That actually happens with a lot of projectiles in the game and it's some weird thing that has to do with hitboxes. Then there's also the smash crystals, which some are overpowered and some aren't, not gonna go into detail. But that's honestly not that much of a problem when you consider that probably more than half of the kits are overpowered or broken in some way. Like you always had people complaining certain kits. A lot of people had a kit that they just couldn't stand, which I agree with. Playing against some of these busted kit users was hell.
That kinda goes along with another reason I was getting fed up, which was tryhards. Yeah, I get it. If they're good, they're good. But it's also annoying when you keep running into the same sweat over and over again. Like jesus christ i literally haven't played all week I really do NOT want to play with someone who manages to find enough time to get like 86 wins every day. I really despise those people, and to be honest, I guess it's because I'm a little jealous. Because if I was to get as good as they are, I would literally have to play for HOURS a day like they probably do. Here is my training plan-
