The Unexpected

Chapter 6

WARNING: self harm included

Yami's POV

It was another day that I had to face but this time I couldn't wear my binder and I was really self-conscious about it I don't know how I'm going to last. I threw on some black ripped jeans and a very oversized hoodie and made my way downstairs with my head low avoiding they look of the people I passed as I know my chest is still slightly visible. I sat at the bar as Kurogiery spoke up "I made you some coffee and toast I hope that's okay" "That's fine thank you" I started to eat ignoring the worried glances from the people around me "I'm guessing Keigo and Mikuo have already gone to work" "That's correct what's up and don't say nothing I know that's not true" I looked around the bar to check it was only us in the room before I replied "I'm just disappointed I can't wear my binder when I hate my body to begin with I know it's for a good reason but just why couldn't I just be born in the right body why did life have to be difficult why did my parents have to disown me WHY WHY *sob* w-why just why?" I was sobbing by the end of that and had my head resting on my arms on the counter "Hey it's okay the past doesn't define you your choices now and in the future do what's important is that you surround yourself with people who do expect you and ignore the people who don't your you no matter who you identify with now and who you were born as you shouldn't be scared to show yourself whether you have your binder on or not we all except you here we won't judge you and if they do they have me to deal with" "thanks".

 I left to go to my room after what he had said I mean it was true but it doesn't make a difference to how I feel. Normally when I feel like this there is only one way to help but I can't do that I promised to Keigo and Mikuo I would never do it again but I don't think I can help it this time I just can't let them know. With that I grabbed a bag and made my way to the bathroom locking the door behind me. I went into the bag and grabbed one of my razor blades. I held it in my hand looking at the reflection of the light on the blade. I took a deep breath and put the blade to my arm pressing harder until blood emerged from underneath it and then slowly dragged it along my wrist. I watched as the blood trickled down my arm and into the sink not fascinated enough by the pain yet I dragged the blade down my arm again and again until I ran out of room and moved onto the next arm. My eyes started to see black dots and close slowly "Yami open the door" I heard Dasi shout. The last thing I saw was the bathroom door burst open in the reflection of the mirror before I dropped to the floor unconscious. 

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This is short but I hope you enjoyed AJ and Sock. (If any of you guys feel like this please talk to somebody I know it can be hard but it is for the best we promise it will help)