My head is a minefield
One wrong move and it all comes back
All the pain, the memories, the numbness
I want to feel something. Anything
Pain is the easiest to feel
One simple scratch and I'm feeling again
It's addicting
I feel so little sometimes
I'm loved, but that doesn't register
The pain puts me deeper into the minefield
But I feel something from it, even if just for a second
So I shed my blood
Watch as it rolls across my arms in drops
One day I may take it too far
I occasionally wish I had never woken up
But I keep fighting
Not for my family. For my friends
I cannot be the source of their pain
So I must continue on
With this minefield of a brain
