I just want everyone to know that I'm ok and that I'm just taking some time off
And just taking some time to breathe and... that... it doesn't matter whatever happens
That I'm always gonna be ok
For anyone who doesn't know what's going on;
There's pretty much nothing that's going on
It's just my brain that's going on and it's driving me insane
And all I wanna do is just... be in my house...
Be with my mom and my dad... be with my family...
I'm so fucking sick, I'm so fucking sick of the world
I'm so fucking mad that half the world is hungry because half the world has never had to sleep with an empty stomach
And I'm so sad that we have enough money to feed the whole world, yet half the world is fucking hungry
I'm so fucking mad that people are mean
That people don't give a fuck and...
People aren't being mean to me, I hate seeing people be mean to other people
It sucks when you wanna change the whole world but you can't because you're just one person and... I just wanna save everyone
Sometimes...
All the universe's positivity is coming into me and I'm just handing it out to everyone else
And I'm not keeping any for myself
And... I really should
But if I could save other people, I'd rather save THEM than MYSELF
But how can I save other people when I'm not even alive?
I just wish... just wish this brain could stop...
Wanting to hurt myself, I just wish that...
I could finally find a way to cure myself...
Life's a fucking journey, and I'm trying!
And I'm trying SO FUCKING HARD!
And it sucks because I'm trying to be a good person and I kill people with kindness
And I just... I just want the best for everyone
I want everyone to be happy....
And it sucks because sometimes I put people in front of me, I put people before me
I'm trying... I'm trying so fucking hard...
But...
Something's fucking triggering me and I don't know what it is... and I just... that it's just...
It's just that it doesn't matter
And that, whether I'm here or not... the sun will continue to shine and the grass will continue to grow, the birds will sing, trees will grow, and people will live
And the world will continue it's cycle
And I will just be another person in history... and no one will remember but...
I know this is so depressing and I don't wanna depress people
I can't sleep properly because, how can someone sleep when...
When your brain is constantly ticking
I'm going fucking insane
I'M GOING FUCKING INSANE
I just constantly wanna help other people and...
I'm just putting all my effort into other people
And I just need to put some effort into myself and...
I hope everyone's having a really good day
Somewhat better than mine
But... either way I'm gonna be ok
Cause we're all fucking fighters, and you are too
Please don't ever feel the way I do...
Please don't ever beat yourself up, please never hate yourself...
Keep yourself together
Keep yourself alive
Do whatever the fuck you can...
Do whatever the fuck you can to stay alive...
