Why can't I cry?
Why won't tears trail down my cheeks?
Something's wrong, I can tell.
I want to cry, but my eyes are dry.
I want to talk, but my throat is too sore.
I want to walk, but my legs won't respond.
I want to sleep, but my mind keeps racing.
My eyes won't cry anymore, but why?
Have I cried so much that my tears have all dried up and I have no more left to watch in the mirror as they run down my cheeks?
I can't cry anymore.
What's wrong with me?
Something is wrong with me.
All I can do is quietly scream and claw at my chest.
Listening to sad songs to try to make sure my eyes aren't dry.
I can't cry anymore.
Why can't I cry anymore?
What have I done to make my tears go away for good?
Is it the conversations I have with my sister and friends?
Is it how many times I cry to the point I couldn't cry?
Why do I feel useless?
Why do I feel like I'm not good enough?
Why am I unable to cry?
Just why?..
Why?
WHY?!
WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME TO THE POINT MY TEARS ARE COMPLETELY DRY?!
WHEN DID I CRY SO MUCH THAT IT DRIED MY TEARS FOR GOOD?!
Why can't I talk?
Why?
WHY?!
WHEN DID I SCREAM SO MUCH THAT IT TOOK AWAY MY VOICE?! HOW LOUD DID I SCREAM AND TRY TO CRY?!
Why can't I walk?
Why?
WHY?!
WHEN DID MY BRAIN STOP MY LEGS FROM RESPONDING TO WHAT I WANTED TO DO?!
WHEN DID MY BODY BECOME UNRESPONSIVE TO WHEN I WANT TO WALK AND RUN AND SKIP AND DANCE?!
Why can't I sleep?
Why?
WHY?!
WHEN DID MY MIND BECOME SO FULL OF EMBARRASSING, DARK, EMOTIONAL, CONSUMING THOUGHTS?!
I want to cry again
I want to talk again
I want to walk again
I want to sleep again
So many things I want to do again...
My brain refuses to respond to me
It won't let me cry
Won't let me cry
Won't let me cry
My eyes won't cry anymore...
But why?...
