I have a secret♠️

Chapter 2

Hello guys , author-Chan is Here <3
So before you get to the story there going to be a lot of flashbacks is going to be confusing and complicated but soon the good stuff are coming soon so yeah and there going to be some short ones or long ones story
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Also there some mistakes or misspelling
And there going be a lot in story so be careful and don't try to hurt your self no matter your amazing :)❤😭
So don't read it if it too much for u , okay :)? Take care ❤😭

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Shoyo thoughts 💭-
You must be wondering , why my dad left and what my mom went through when my father left⬇

My father decided to drink and drive ,he got caught once they let him go but he decided to go do it again but when he gets drunk , he more lazy and tired so I didn't really care because he knew how to drink but I was mad that he got caught for drinking and driving again but he got caught again so the problem was that he wasn't from here so they sent him where he was from , so I couldn't my father at all ..........

I never found out , until I got older but at the same at keep thinking that it was fault that I was keeping my parents not getting to get divorced and I wish they did so I could see my dad or maybe I could get a job and he could help me , I wanted to help my mom but she said no school is more important but she did start teaching me how cook and for there I was doing good

My mom was of course sad and lonely but I was there to confront her but I guess it was never enough because she found a other guy but he became her boyfriend but I was nice to me but soon or later they had arguments and there a lot of fights , I was slowly started to think it was my mom but clearly there both toxic so they broke up and of course had other one then a other but they broke up of course 
, after that she decided stay single but then again she meets other guy , I decided to give up and do what she wants so I didn't trust him at all I knew he was going toxic

Boy I was right , he get drunk and say things he don't mean but I will try ignore but he kept bothering me so I was getting sick tired that I could kick his ass but I couldn't so I had to control and pray to god to do my job and getting him out my life cause I'm already traumatized so god listens to my prayers because he said he will change but he still act the same

Oh I forgot I have younger sister her name Natsu Hinata and of course she still a baby but she grew the same color as me and my mom , I was thankful to god because he got him out of lives and yeah he kinda helpful but I know soon or later my mom won't need him or others guys anymore and natsu was honestly a miracle so thank her and god because there not good people so he got rid of my problem

My mom still had stress but slowly going better at it and while me taking care of my sister but I started to play sports in summer I was pretty much in athletic but at the time I was playing basketball and soccer ,I was good at it and I got used to it

Anyways my middle school year I was so excited and everything went alright but the best part is the I finally made friends in my middle , of course some of them left or slowly faded because of school or we had nothing to talk even tho it hurt but i still keep smiling , thinking  positive that everything will be alright

I met some people and the best part my cousin goes to school with me and she been helping to keep calm and making me laugh but also my guy friends they truly care about me

Shoyo friends and cousin name ( some are going to be in future so )
-Suzuki
-yuiktaka Izumi
-Kōji Sekimukai
And lastly
His cousin-
Aoi Niko
   

They have been there the most then the others ones so I'm happy that I was finally had friends and everything will be alright so I was so happy until I decided to like someone and we dated it but soon I will tell you about it the part but let's not talk the one person right now but all you need to know it wasn't the best relationship I guess it was that bad but deep down he left me with whole in my heart

Anyways you know soon about that time ...........( he signs)

So one day I was riding my bike because I was going  but then
That was moment when I saw people stare the tv and that when I saw the little giant spike the ball but my eye widened open I started to like volleyball  ever since that day I wanted to be a ace or middle blocker

I was excited and I wanted to never give up on it that how I kinda met someone in future
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(U thought it's was going to i was finish , well no I'm not done
But there worry the you start to get there just wait patiently and sit back - author-Chan )back with shoyo life ⬇

I started to think playing volleyball but negative things come back and you know old times or old memories started to think back I almost had panic attack but thankfully no one was there to watch what happened

Do I still drink medication? Well
Yes but lately I been skipping it and I had more then one panic attack but they aren't that bad , I just didn't want to worry my mom and sister , she was still young so she couldn't understand but she there for me to cheer up
I didn't tell my mom I haven't drink medication but I was starting to drink again and soon I didn't need them anymore

By that I'm still in middle school so I'm almost done with middle school tho I just need to 8th grade and finally high school but to be honest I'm going to miss my friends and my cousin

They probably won't go to the same high school or they have new friends or they won't even talk to me anymore , a lot things came though my mind I was scared not to find friends in high school it will be the same thing like it happened in elementary but middle school was kinda same thing , soon or later I met these guys and they made it better