Making it Through (Sequel to OLT and FFY)

Chapter 11

3 months later-

I tried my best to take care of the kids on my own while Harry and the guys were on tour, but it was just so hard to. I would get light headed and dizzy the second i stood up then in the afternoons I would be puking up blood. The kids were so worried about me and I was afraid of what would happen if I couldn't pull through this like I have with all the other bad crap in my life.

"Mommy." I looked at the door way to see Aaron standing there with tears in her eyes. I got up off the bed trying not to fall over and pass out.

"What baby?" i asked sitting on the ground.

"Why are you so sick?" A tear rolled down her cheek.

"Baby it's nothing to worry about. I promise you." I hugged her tightly and the twins crawled into the room with Darcy and Louis behind them. They all were in the same state as Aaron.

I hugged them all until they fell asleep from crying. As I carefully moved to our bed and laid each one down I passed the calendar and saw Harry and the guys would be back tomorrow. I couldn't wait for Harry to walk through the front door and hug me.

I thought about tomorrow as I crawled into bed and fell asleep with all five of our little Styles.

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The familiar feeling turned in my stomach and I ran to the bathroom making it just in time to see red fill my vision.

"BABE! KIDS! I'M HOME!" I heard from downstairs. I looked to see the kids still out cold. "Kellie!?" Harry called walking up the stairs and into our room.

He came into the bathroom after a second and dropped to the floor next to me hugging me.

No words were said because if either one of us spoke we would break down into tears yelling and cursing god asking why he wanted to torture us with all the bad crap that's happened. After an hour I looked up into Harry's emeralds while he rubbed my back.

"I don't think we'll win this time." I murmured and broke down crying again.

"No baby. Don't say that. We'll get through this just like we have everything else." Harry reassured mainly himself. I knew my body wasn't strong enough to handle what I went through the last time. Between the first round of cancer, the kidnap, five kids, and another kidnap. I knew there was no way my body could take another beating of treatments.

I, Kellie Louise Styles, labeled a fighter when it came to this man next to me, was giving up. No more fighting gods will, no more trying to stay here, no more staying strong. I was done worn down. Like a nice car. The first day you get it it's perfect, then after a while if you drive it a lot it turns to a junker.

Harry sat with me in his arms convincing himself and trying to get me to believe that I would see our kids graduate, watch him walk our girls down the aisle, and watch our grandchildren run around. But the truth was, I probably wasn't even going to see the next Christmas which arrives in only 5 months.

"I love you Kellie." Harry said rocking me back and forth like he had the day he cried and cried about having to leave me for tour back before our marrige.

"I love you too Harry." I said hugging him tightly so when I was gone and he got a new wife he would at least remember my hugs. I was going to spend the rest of my time on Earth with everyone. I wanted them to remember me after I was long gone. I want my kids to remember me and not suffer a painful life without a mother.

They would love me while I was here and move on after.

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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! Hope you like it, sorry for the long wait. Love ya'll!

-Kell<3