I heard the door open, but my neck was still to sore to move
John(dad)-
"Finally your awake. Your so weak and pathetic, like two days wasn't enough"
He says while grabbing my hair to make me stand up right
"GO clean your room and take your clothes and bring all of your things down here. My girlfriend is going to be living here. So this is your new room."
Ella-
"B- but there is n- no air conditioning or a b- bed"
He slapped me right where my bruise was from the other one
John(dad)-
"That's not my problem, now is it?"
Ella-
"B- but what a- about the guest room c- cant she stay their?"
He pushes me down and kicks my head and I feel something trickle down my neck. I can't tell if it's blood or sweat.
John(dad)-
"What did I say about stuttering?", " I can't wait for the day you get your period. Your mom had horrible ones, even with the painkillers. I am going to have so much fun when the time comes!"
I don't have my period yet, I'm guessing from how little I am able to eat. I have about like 10 crackers every 5-6 days. Half the time, I'm too worn out and tired for gym, so I have to sit out.
John(dad)-
"Get ready for School. You better be home by 9:30 at the latest, or you will get extra tonight!!!!!"
Ella-
"Yes, dad"
I went up to my room and glanced at the clock 5:20. I don't even know why he was up this early.
I clean my room and take my stuff to the garage. I get dressed in more long clothes. It must be Wednesday now.
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What I wore
The only makeup I have, is concealor. So I put it on my bruise.
I quickly sneak out of the house to avoid being beaten.
When I get to school, I asked the secretary guard what time it was and he said 6:00.
UGHHHH, what am I gonna do for two hours?
I decided to write in my song journal. I mainly write songs about how much pain I'm in from the beatings, so I am extra careful that no one sees me writing in it.
Noah-
I whip my book closed and shove it in my bag. Definitely too fast, because everything started to hurt and I got a pounding headache. I hold my head.
Ella-
"Ahhhhhhh" (I say in more of a whisper)
Noah-
"Woah you ok there?"
Ella-
"Ah. I mean- um sorry. I mean.........ummmmm I gotta go"
Noah-
"Wait!"
He grabs my wrist and I wince in pain and fear
Noah-
"Oh, I'm so sorry"
Ella-
"It's all good"
I quickly pull down my sleeve because it came up halfway to my elbow
Noah-
"Woah woah. Where did you get all those bruises?"
Ella-
"Ummm I umm I hit my wrist on my.......mmmyyy night stand. Yeah my night stand."
F*ck Ella why do you have to be so horrible
Noah-
"Hey, um you don't have to tell me anything, but I think you should go to the nurse. You look like your about to pass out, every time you take a step."
