i sigh looking through my old photos.
some i find of me and my first boyfriend.
he was a great boyfriend, i loved him so much.
he always stood up for me when i was bullied.
but he committed suicide when i woke up with some girl and had no idea where i was or what i did with her.
i had sex with her but i don't even like girls like that, it's because a girl named Brit, (who used to be my best friend until she found out i was gay)
spiked my drink at the party.
i was mute for a year.
but my dad beat me until i was coughing up blood.
i was forced into talking.
i obviously wasn't planning on it.
i groan as Michael jumps onto my stomach, i have a bug bruise there.
"dammit Michael!" i yell pushing him onto the ground with a thud and a grunt.
"what the fuck is wrong with you?" Michael mutters under his breathe, exiting the room.
i groan hiding my face in my hands.
of course i made him upset.
tears brim in my eyes as a pair of arms wrap around me.
"what's wrong Lukey?" Ashton whispers, sending shivers down my spine.
"i made Michael upset." i say, wrapping my arms around his neck and laying on top of him, our stomachs pressed against each others.
"he's overdramatic babe, don't worry about it." he giggles.
my heart is pounding hard and i feel butterflies swirling around in my tummy.
i love the tingly feeling i get when he laughs, or smiles, or touches my hand...
i put my head in the crook of his neck and he runs his hands through my hair, we lie like this for a while.
i close my eyes and try to fall asleep, and i can't help but overhear the conversation going on.
"Luke!" Michael shouts.
"shut the fuck up he's trying to sleep you dick." Ashton hisses.
it's hot when he swears, because he doesn't seem like the type to swear.
"sorry,sorry. but you got yourself in deep shit man." Michael says guietly.
"you do." i hear Calum agree.
"no i don't! I'm not desperately in love with him, he's popular he's probably straight anyways. he already doesn't like me because I'm gay. well i mean like half the school doesn't. but that's okay, if they hate me for not being able to help who i love they can screw themselves because that's some fucked up shit bro." Ashton rambles on.
Ashton's gay?... who knew.
he wraps his arms around me tighter.
i snuggle my head more into his chest and he kisses my temple sweetly.
"they're so cute!!" Calum squeals.
"i ship it!"
me too.
"no guys stop!"
oh.
i decide to let sleep take over me at this point.
not wanting to hear anymore of this conversation.
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Luke and Lindsey went to Ashton's house.
in this chapter Lindsey was taking a nap.
