goodbye [michaeng] -stop updating-

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17 june 2019
7:15am kst
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-Mina pov-

I call her again for the.. I don't know how many times..

She didn't go here last night to have dinner with me , she didn't even tell me.. She just left my messages on seen

She didn't even answer her phone when i call her and now i feel worried about her

what if she and her mom have a fight again? I can't sleep thinking about her , thinking about the things that could possibly happen after she talk with her mother..

It must be hard for her..

she said that she and her mom often fight about things , but she never told me since when and why , what's the reason they fight , she never open that topic any further..

Sometimes i do wonder , where is her father? What happen to him? it's kinda weird because while I'm with her for two years , I've never heard her talking about her father , at all

I hope she can trust me just like how i trust her..

But I respect her privacy though , I'll just wait for the right time to come for her to tell me about her life since I've already told her everything about me..

hm.. except that my family died on an elevator crash 4 years ago , that's unexpected actually

Nobody knows what happen , but I've been told that the elevator fall down in a fast speed from 44th floor to 1st floor

My parent are the only people who are using the elevator that time

The police officer said it's lucky because there's not so many people using the elevator , but did losing both of my parent can be called something 'lucky'?

did losing both of someone i love , someone i cherish and someone i trust 'lucky'?

Sometimes i do miss them but it's fate , i can't bring them back to live , i don't have any power to do that

Only if i could see them one more time..

But 2 years later , chaeyoung came into my life

i already move on after i found chaeyoung , and I'm happy that i did , I'm happy that finally i can run away from the 'memory' chain

She come to me when i really needed someone , she was there , she bringing light for me when all i can see is darkness..

She stay with me , she hold my hands and tell me that she'll never leave me

She tell me that everything will be alright and i'm still holding onto those words..

her words and her presence make me twice stronger than i actually am

she teach me how to love myself and she make me realise how happy life can be , she even make me stop blaming myself ; making me stop thinking that i'm the cause of my parents' death..

i always see her happy around me and i never see her shed tears even a drop

How can she be so happy like that? Sometimes it makes me jealous seeing her happy all the time , i wish i can be and act just like her..