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'9'

"so.." she blurted out which make me turn my head at her , waiting for her to continue

"why don't you tell me more about yourself mina?" she asked while giving me the widest smile I've seen today followed by her smiley eyes , i puckered my lips and lean my body to the front and back again at the bench slowly

"why grandma? Why do you want to know about me?.. I'm not that important.." i said and look blankly at the sky , chuckling bitterly after

"don't say that! You have a big effect on me , dear.. That's why i want to know you more , about yourself and about people around you.." she denied and hold my hand , i look down at our intertwined hands and let out a small smile

"what kind of effect grandma?" i asked her , not removing my gaze on our hands that was laying peacefully on of my lap , i caress her wrinkly hands with my other hand gently

"you remind me of my  granddaughter that passed away just a few months ago.." she said with a sad tone , i lift my head up and saw her eyes was already filled with tears that was threatening to fall down

"grandma.." i said and hug her arm , trying to comfort her

I know how she's feeling right now , losing someone we love is something we both have in common and i can feel the pain that she was feeling right now

"no crying.. " i caress her arm and patting it at the same time , i can feel she nodded her head

"yes yes , no crying" she answered , taking out something from her pocket which what i assume was a handkerchief and wipe her tears that was already rolling down through her cheeks , i rest my head on her shoulder and hummed

"hmm.. Then , what do you want to know about me grandma? I'll tell you anything about me" i take a glance on her face and back to the front , looking at the kids that was happily running around the park

"everything , from when you're born until now.." she said with her voice cracking at the last word

"but- that's-.." i hesitate wether i should tell her or not about my whole entire life for a second before i decide that i should give it a go

well i never told anyone about myself other than momo , sana and chae.. chaeyoung so why don't i try new things and open up to new a people?

After all , grandma was a nice person so why not?

I nodded slowly before i began my story

"i was born at tokyo , japan . i was raised with full of love and my parents do spoil me little since I'm the only daughter that they have and I'm also the youngest , that's probably why they give me love and affections more than my brothers . I have two older brother named kai , 21 years old and and ryo , 22 years old that was now living inside our parents house , they're single and still not wanting to start any relationship as they decide to focus on working first . They'll marry the girl of their dream after they can afford to buy a house and live with them. Kai was working as an engineer and ryo was now working in a famous chinese restaurant at that area near my parent's house.. " i paused to inhale some air since i said that in one breath , grandma nodded indicating that she understands everything that i said

I let go of her arm and sit back straight , crossing my arm together at the same time and then i continue

"i was homeschooled for 3 years starting when i was 11 years old until I'm 14 years old.. because.."

"..because i was bullied 4 months before new year , everything was beyond terrible at that time.. Nobody even have the guts to help me , no one was there for me when i needed their help.. The other kids literally ignored my loud scream and groan as they just keep watching the bullies beat me up like they're watching a movie.."