Forget

Prologue - Truth

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

Sometimes I think I'm crazy, sometimes I hope Im not the only one who feels this way. That maybe there are others like me, who are stuck. I wish I could just forget and move on, but how do you stop loving your first love? I can't even say it out loud because it is so frustrating, wanting someone who doesn't want me. It's been years since it's been through but, god... I hate myself. I like to believe I try my best, going day to day doing my normal routine. How do others do it? How can someone go day after day without thinking of someone they were once in love with, am I weak or just pathetic. My heart aches, I keep telling myself I don't care anymore, I don't love him anymore but it's all a lie. If I could spend one day, an hour even just a couple minutes with him... I would. At the very least I'd like to get the truth out somewhere, one day be able to tell someone what has been on my mind and weighing heavy on my heart. If I'm found pathetic, I understand. If one day he happens to come across this, I hope to hear from him.
I know I have dragged on my thoughts to long, I'll tell my story, how I wish I could just...forget.