Sometimes the unexpected happens {Tsukikage}

I Don't Wanna Lose You Part 2 (Chapter 6)

Kageyama's POV
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After tsukishma was rushed to the hospital I had taken a shower to get all the blood off of me. His dad had hired someone to clean up the blood and make it look normal again. It looked like a full crime scene.

When I was done I got changed into one of the tall blondes hoodies. The rest waited in the living room. Luckily they all had calmed down. The only one that couldn't was yamaguchi, yamaguchi was still a crying mess even when I got done taking a shower. Sugawara was holding yamaguchi while the rest was comforting him.

When I went down I seen him. His dad, "so your kageyama" He said Looking at me. 'Yes? What do you want. " I said coldly. "Do you know the reasoning of this? Why is my son in the emergency room right now?" He said looking at me. The rest was confused. "You know, maybe if your acted like a real father and didn't treat your 'son' like shit. Maybe he would still be here. " I said getting angry.

He was taken back by what I said. "You know nothing about me or him. " He said. "Actually I know a lot. He was comfortable enough to talk me. Maybe stop being fucking ABUSIVE AND A PRICK! You say I know nothing about him when you don't yourself. You criticized everything he did, even as a child you were mean. Maybe act like a real father and maybe then you'll know him. " I said with full anger. "You don't even have the right to call him your son after treating him like that. You constantly degrade him and make him feel like he's nothing. He's depressed because of YOU! HE'S LIKE THIS BECAUSE OF YOU!! WHAT DON'T YOU GET?! YOU NEED TO STOP!! " I said breaking down in tears. "I really hope you regret everything. I hope you live with this guilt. I hope you suffer just as much as he did. " Then I walked out of the living room.

I was so angry, and sad, and mad at myself and I just was overwhelmed with emotions. But then Asahi came in. "Hey I heard what happened out there.. I know what you and tsukishma are going through. I know it feels to feel regret, to be in this dark place, to constantly be reminded of my past, to wish I could turn back the time and change things.. " Asahi said putting a hand on my shoulder.

"I-i just.. I should have been there for him.. " I said crying. "You could have. But you where there, you were there when he needed to talk to. When he needed someone to cry on you where there. When he needed a friend you where there. He was also there for you. When you needed someone to cry on or talk to when hinata cheated he was there. " Asahi said with a soft smile, it was somewhat comforting. He knew how to talk to people. He knew how to calm someone down with his words and a smile. "Now you gotta be there for him now. He needs you the most. He needs to know someone cares about him. He needs you. I know you need him as well. But even if things don't go as planned. Be happy for him, smile for him, continue on for him, be the best volleyball player for him, never give up for him, be the person he knows you can be for him. Be you. " Asahi's words really brung out a light I never knew I had.

"Thank you Asahi.. You know your a really great friend.. I needed that. " I said wiping my tears. "Now you can either stay here and regret seeing him. Or go to the hospital and be there for him. " Asahi said. "I'll go. But can you and yamaguchi come? I know how much he means to yamaguchi and maybe yamaguchi will need you. " I said with a smile. "Of course kageyama. " Asahi said.

Akiteru (I think that's how you spell his name? ) drove us to the hospital. We walked in and he was still in the emergency room. There were Doctors and nurses coming in and out. I even seen a few nurses coming out crying. That only built on to my worry. *please any god, spirit, a savior, or whatever is out there. Please have tsukishma get through this. I need him* I prayed in my head. Yamaguchi was asleep on akiteru. Asahi was calling nishinoya so he could keep the others notified on what's happening.

I finally was able to see tsukishma after 2 hours. (Mind you tsukishma committed suicide at 5pm it was 9pm, kageyama and the rest didn't get there until 7pm) tsukishma was asleep lying on the hospital bed. He looked pale, he looked emotionless, he looked dead inside. He didn't look like the tsukishma he knew and loved. *please just get through this pain.. *I thought.

"Ok visiting hours are closed you may be able to see this patient tomorrow. " The nurse said walking in. "Oh.. Ok" I said walking out. The rest followed.

That night I couldn't sleep, I missed tsukishma. Anytime I closed my eyes I would be reminded of tsukishma on the floor covered in his own blood. I couldn't sleep. I tried to take some melatonin but it still didn't work. *god I miss you.. * I thought thinking about tsukishma. I missed his smile, his warm and comforting hug, his scent, his comforting appearance, his snarky comments he would make, him being salty, I missed us cuddling, I missed his voice... I wanted him but he wasn't there.

I then was reminded of asahi's words, I was reminded on how I should be happy for tsukishma. *I just gotta get through this night, I gotta be happy for him, I have to.. I have to be prepared for tomorrow. I have to* I thought finally sleeping.
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Tsukishma's POV
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I woke up at around 8am. I was in a white room. *ugh I guess it didn't work.. * I thought. Everything was white, it was blinding almost. My head was killing me, my whole body hurt. Everything hurt. I tried to go back to sleep but it even hurt to move. I opened my eyes fully to see a nurse. "Oh hello tsukishma. Your finally awake" She was checking my vitals I think. Her voice was really high, I hated it. "Oh... " I said rolling my eyes in my head. "Ok so I'll just have to ask you a few question if that's ok? " She said with her annoying voice

"Meh I guess.." I said not really wanting to be there or talking to her.. I just wanted kageyama.. "Ok so how is the pain 1-10?" She asked with a smile. "10" I said. "Ok.. Where does the pain hurt? " She said writing down whatever I said in her computer. "Everywhere" I said. "Ok.. Anytime your allergic to? Like any medicines, foods, anything? " She said. *I'm allergic to you now get away from you.* I thought. "Nothing that I know of." I said trying to sound as nice as possible.

"Ok well your doctor should be here shortly! " She said with her voice going higher. *god her voice is annoying* I thought. "Ya ya ok." I said laying back down trying to sleep.

After being in the same hospital room and eating the disgusting food I seen akiteru. "Hey tsukishma" Akiteru said. "Oh it's you." I said annoyed. "Hey at least I came. By the way 3 people are here for you. " Akiteru said with a smile. "Eh ok. " I said rolling my eyes. He walked out and then Asahi, yamaguchi, and kageyama walked in. "Tsuki!" Yamaguchi said. "Hey tsukishma. " Asahi said. The only person that didn't say anything was kageyama.

Don't get me wrong I was happy yamaguchi and Asahi was there because aside from kageyama there were the ones that didn't give me a headache but I really wanted to just see kageyama. Asahi could tell what I was thinking so he said "hey me and yamaguchi will leave you 2 be" Asahi said with a comforting smile. They both walked out.

"Hey.. " Kageyama said sitting next to me. "I'm sorry.. " Kageyama said. "Why are you sorry? " I said. "I should been there for you.. " Kageyama said looking down. Despite the pain I was feeling mentally and physically I pulled kageyama into a hug. "You were there.. I just made a dumb decision. It's not your fault.. Ok babe? " I said.

"Ok... I missed you.." Kageyama said cuddling against me. "I did to. " Then I pulled him closer. He fell asleep quickly. *I guess he was really tired* I thought. After about 10 minutes  I fell asleep as well.