RuLi drabbles (EA)

Ego

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What have I done...

If it wasn't for my darn stupid ego, none of this would have happened...

Look at him.

Laying motionless on the bed, wrapped up in bandages and an IV drip connected to his hand.

Such a fool I am...

I could have prevented this from happening, I could have save him..but no. I fucking didn't.

The sound of the door sliding open broke my attention away from the unconscious figure and saw my brother walking in.

"... Hey, bud..."

"Gin..."

Gin flashes me a soft smile before taking a seat in an empty chair that was right next to where I was.

"So... How's he holding up."

My gaze fell back into laying figure in front of me, unconsciously taking a long, deep breath.

"The doctor said that his conditions are finally stable... They were able to remove the azurium from spreading. Though he'll be in a coma for a bit."

Gin sighed in relief and sat back in his seat.

"That's good... Glad to know we won't be losing another potential legacy..."

I only looked down at that moment. Not being able to give a respond.

"Rudy- are you alright? You're tearing up-!"

Gin sounded alarmed.
I looked up at him, finally realising the presence of my tears that were slowly sliding down my cheeks.

Before I could utter a word, the next thing I knew was that I broke down sobbing into my brother's arms.

"This is all my fault!"

I kept repeating that same line over and over, gripping into Gin's coat tightly.

"Because of me, he got hurt! Because of me, he risked his life to protect me! BECAUSE OF ME, I-"

I froze when I felt a pair of strong arms wrapped around my figure firmly. Radiating a comforting and calm energy.

I took a deep breath and let out a long sigh before finally calming down.

"S-sorry.."

Gin gently ran his fingers through my hair as it was one of the ways he found out that would calm me down. I hate to admit...but it works.

"It's fine, Rudy... I've would have reacted the same if it were to happen to you... Now tell me. What's on your mind. I'm listening..."

"I... I don't know honestly... I've been having mixed feelings about Ali... Apart of me wants to annoy and bully him but another part of me kept screaming to get closer and protect him. I've been in a state of denial ever sinc-"

Something clicked in my mind, causing me to flush in red due to embarrassment. I could feel Gin smirking to himself as he continued to pet my hair.

"To me.. It sounds like you've catched feelings for Ali~"

He teased, which he received a jab in the stomach by me. Gin yelped in pain though he didn't let go of his hold on me.

But...

He's not wrong...

I realized that I have been pushing back my feelings and hiding it behind my thick wall of ego.