My Addiction

Chapter 8: Congratulations

Narration

Jasmine's life has really been interesting these past few days. Her and Max are trying to move on and forget about each other, but it's hard when your feelings for someone is that deep. Ross has been a good distraction from Max for Jasmine, but no matter how much she tries to repress her feelings, she regrets that entire argument. Same goes for Max too. Her heart has been hurt by this whole scenario, but let's see how strong she really is.

Jasmine

My daily routine sucks now. I eat breakfast with Mom and Max. All me and Max do now is give each other stares. It's like we have an entire conversation through our eyes. Ross comes and picks me up for work. We have sex on our lunch break. We go chill at his house, and then I relax in my room with the door locked. I know he wants to talk to me and I want to talk to him, but why the hell won't we talk? I hate this feeling. I hate that I feel this way. Sex with Ross really isn't all that great anymore. I guess I'll skip breakfast and go straight to work. I do just that, but as I was walking out the door, I heard Max calling me. "Jazzy wait.", he said to me. " What Max?", I asked him as my heart started beating fast. He opened his mouth, but words wouldn't come out. Ross started honking his horn so I turned around and walked to the car. As I got in, I couldn't smile for some reason. "What's wrong baby?", Ross said with a concerned voice. " Nothing. ", I responded. That was all I could say to him, because I don't know myself. God I miss Max, but what was he trying to tell me? Was it good, or will it destroy me even more? I already know I can't shake this feeling.

Maxwell

Damn it I'm so stupid! Why the hell couldn't I apologize for my behavior. Wait..why am I apologizing? She should be the one apologizing. After all, I lost my job because of her. Why am I still feeling like this towards her. I'm supposed to be focused on Janice. Besides, she moved on to Ross anyway. I've been so stupid this whole time. I miss Jasmine like hell. I know what I must do though. I got to get to the store.

Jasmine

Work sucks. Everytime I pass the third floor, I see Max's empty section. I walked over there today and sat in his chair. I noticed his key was still stuck in the lock at the bottom of his drawer. I opened it and what I saw made me tear up bad. He had a picture, of us, just laughing together. It's like my heart was hanging on 3 strings now. I decided to put my pride aside and apologize as soon as I get home. " Jasmine?" "Where are you?", I heard Ross call. I wiped my eyes and ran over to him. " Right here darling. ", I jokingly tries to say. My voice started to crack so I tried to say as little as possible. How could he not feel that something is wrong with me? All he mainly wants to do is fuck anyway, but he has his sweet moments. " I love you sweetheart. ", he said. Here we go with that love stuff again. " I love you too baby.", I said to him, sounding a little hesitant. I worked my ass off to try and take my mind off of that picture, but it wouldn't leave my mind. My feelings instantly felt deeper than ever before. I couldn't wait to go home when I saw 4:00. I grabbed my bag and headed for the door with Ross. I stopped all of a sudden. "Ross, hold on a sec". I ran to the third floor and grabbed me and Max's picture from his old drawer and hid it in my bag. I hopped in the car and Ross was just looking at me. " You seem pretty eager for our after-work quickie.", He said to me smiling. "I really don't feel like it today. Can you take me home instead?", I asked him. " I guess.", He disappointedly said. He drove me home and we got out the car. As I was walking towards the front door, I left my pride in the car. I was ready to tell Max how I truly feel and apologize for my behavior. I opened the door and I saw Max and Mom standing there. Mom was smiling hard at us holding her hand. "What's going on?", I asked, feeling an uneasy flow in the room. Max dipped his head down, trying not to look at me. " Max proposed!!", she blurted out. As she showed me her ring, I felt my heart fall to my stomach. Scratch that. I had no heart anymore. My voice started to crack as I said just one word. "Congratulations.", I strained out. I tried my best to hold the tears in, but this was so devastating that I couldn't help but cry right there. I ran past them straight up the stairs to my room. As soon as my door shut I couldn't see anything. My eyes were too filled with tears. I stared at that lone spot in my wall, and punched elbow deep into it. I couldn't control my body. I cried so bad. I couldn't be silent about it. I was finally ready to patch things up, but I was too late. If only I realized how much I cared about him before all this. I took many blows to the heart before, but he came out of nowhere and put a shotgun shell through it and burned the remains. I can't believe this is happening to me. As I was crying my soul out, Ross came in and sat next to me. He wasn't perfect, but when I
I cried, he was there with a shoulder to lean on. My emotions started twirling again and I realized what was going on. I needed to be fucked. I grabbed Ross's head and brought it towards mine, giving him a lustful kiss. I ripped his shirt off and he did mine. We both wanted this bad. I unzipped his pants and as I pulled out his penis, I decided to suck it to make up for denying him earlier. He grabbed my head and pushed his penis to the back of my throat. I choked at first but I adjusted myself to where it could go deeper. I didn't mind giving head, oral sex is a natural foreplay session. I felt his shaft throb. He was about to come. I tried to move up but he pushed my head back down and came in my mouth. I swallowed it. It was thicker than usual, he must have really wanted this more than I thought. I got up and pushed him up on the bed. I got on top and rode him like a bull. My hair flew recklessly in the air as I rolled my hips on him. His penis swishing around with me felt so good. He grabbed my breasts during and I actually felt extacy flow this time. He came little too early for me this time, right when I needed his dick more. I got up and brushed myself off and proceeded downstairs. Mom left and I saw Max sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. I couldn't look at his face because I know I would cry again.

                            Maxwell

I can't believe what I did. I'm getting married. I know I destroyed Jazzy's heart. I wanna drop a tear just thinking about it. She loves Ross though. She cried. She probably thought I didn't see, but sadly I did. I love Janice, but Jasmine is pretty close too. I'm such an asshole. It's Ross' fault. That motherfucker clouded my fucking mind. No I don't mean that. He might have changed since then. I hope. As I was sitting here thinking, Jasmine came down and looked at me. I could feel her stare piercing my heart. She walked past me, saying nothing. I feel like complete shit. Well she is still on break so I guess we will be seeing more of each other. Dammit.

                          Narration

Max is feeling very regretful about his decision. Jasmine is feeling very regretful about her pride. Max didn't try to, but he has created a broken girl. A shell of her former self even though she tries to be strong and doesn't show it. Vacation is now two days away. This could be interesting.