𝚒 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞|𝚝. 𝚔𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚢𝚊𝚖𝚊

02➪MY LOVING MOTHER

After saying goodbye to the boys, I rushed to my house when I was finally out of sight. Shit. I'm so in trouble. Once I saw my front door in the distance, I sprinted to my door. Clink. My keys fell as I tried to hold them with shakey hands. I grabbed my keys and started to unlock my door as quietly as I can. I sneakily pulled off my shoes and attempted to walk upstairs. "You're home late." I slowly turned my head to see my mother sitting on the couch. "Why?" I shakily let out a breath as I talked, "I-I was talking to some c-classmates."

"Why are you lying?" My mother said as my heart dropped. "I-I was not-" I attempted to say as my mother walked up to me. "Not what?" She questioned. "I was not lying, mo-" I was interrupted by a hard slap to my face. "YOU KNOW I DON'T LIKE LIERS!" My mother yelled as tears threaten to fall from my eyes. "Mom, I swe-" I tried to say, "YOU'RE JUST LIKE YOUR FATHER! ALWAYS LYING!" She then proceeds to slap me two more times before dismissing me to my room.

I ran upstairs, making sure I don't cry in front of her. I softly closed my door, because slamming it would make her angrier. I fell to my knees, silently sobbing. After my father left my mom for another woman, my mother became unstable. One day she'll be happy and want to spend "quality time with her amazing daughter," and the next day she'll be so furious and takes all of her anger out on me. Apparently, according to my mother, I look just like my cheating father and lie like him. I scoff at the thought, she just wants excuses to hit me.

Crying doesn't solve anything, so the minute I started crying, I stopped shortly after. Shit, I better not have a bruise. I got up from my floor and headed to my bathroom. I need to go to bed soon. I walked in front of my mirror to see a small bruise forming. Of course, I have to get a bruise. I rolled my eyes and put a wet, cold cloth on my cheeks before bed.

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"GET YOUR ASS UP! YOU'RE GOING TO BE LATE!" My mother screamed as I jolted awake. Why is this bitch always angry. I rolled my eyes and hopped out of my bed and made my way to the bathroom. Fuck. I looked in the mirror and my bruise has gotten worse. This is so obvious. I grabbed my makeup and lather it on. I usually don't wear makeup, but when my mother is being abusive; makeup is my go-to.

After applying my makeup and rushing to put on my uniform, I headed towards the door. "You better not be late again tonight." My mother warned just before she yelled "LOVE YOU!" I slammed the door and quickly made my way to school. I know she's going to go off on me for slamming the door. I instantly regret slamming the door, but I continued my journey to school.

While walking to school, I see a tall, dark-haired figure walking a few steps ahead of me. Ah, it's Kageyama-kun. I awkwardly slowed down my pace to a stop, so I can put some distance between him and me. I feel awkward walking directly behind someone. After there's some distance between us, I continued walking. Every time I walked too fast or if he walked slower, I would stop and wait for him to walk faster.

Kageyama must've heard the steps behind him constantly stop because suddenly he stops walking. Shit, I've been caught. I quickly walked around him into the entrance of the school. As I walked around him, I felt his eyes linger on me before I entered school. I quickly walked to class 1-3 and sat down at my desk. Luckily, I brought a thinner sweater. It was so hot yesterday.

I literally couldn't sleep at all last night, so I put my head on my desk waiting for the teacher to start lessons. I look up as I heard the desk next to me move. I see Kageyama sitting down at his desk, and I just hid my face in my elbows while laying down. I shift in my seat trying to find a comfortable way to lay my head. My cheeks are still sore from my mom slapping the shit out of me, so it's hard to rest my head.

Ugh. I lifted my head-- giving up on laying my head down. I sat there bored, waiting for the teacher to come in. I decided to just doodle in my notebook to pass time. I've always wanted to learn how to properly draw, but I suck at everything.

"Sorry for being late, class. Let's get started," the teacher said while I got my textbook out.

☟time skip☟

Finally, it's lunchtime. That lesson was so boring. I yawned and stood up from my desk. "Kageyama!" someone yelled, "Stop yelling," Kageyama said before getting out of his seat. I look towards the door to see who's yelling and I see Hinata. I began to walk towards the other door since Hinata was blocking the door.

"(l/n)-san!" Hinata yelled as I look towards him. Kageyama and Hinata look towards me. "Hi Hinata-kun and Kageyama-kun," I said while walking towards them. I checked myself to make sure my sweater was on properly. "Where are you sitting for lunch?" Hinata said and I just shrugged my shoulders, "I don't know, I'll just sit anywhere,"

"You should sit with us'" Hinata suggested as I was taken aback. "No, no it's fine, I'm just going to eat in the cafeteria today," I said; rejecting his offer. "Oh, well, we're going to the cafeteria too. Let's walk together." Hinata said and I nodded my head. I want to stop by the vending machine, but I'm too scared to say anything since Hinata and Kageyama are in the middle of their conversation. Please stop by the vending machine. While walking towards the cafeteria, Kageyama started to walked towards the vending machine. Yes, finally. I walked with him to the vending machine, him getting milk and I got yogurt. "Let's head back." He said while I nodded and drank my yogurt.

The closer we got to the cafeteria, the more my heartbeats beat faster. My breathing becomes shallow as I walked through the cafeteria door. I gripped tightly on my yogurt while looking at everyone in the cafeteria. I can't breathe, I have to get out of here. "Umm, H-Hinata-kun.." I said as Hinata made a 'hm' sound. "I-I got to g-go. I can't be in h-here." I said before I walked out of the cafeteria

Geez, y/n suck it up! Stop crying about everything! I walked and sat on some steps in front of the gym. Fortunately, no one is here, so I can cry freely. I sobbed silently, messing up my makeup with my tears. Minutes later, "Hey, are you alright?" I looked up to see a boy with silver-colored hair. "Uh, yeah I'm fine" I looked to see other people behind him waiting.

"Oh, I'm so sorry," I said as got up from the steps. "You're all good," The silver-haired boy said as I picked up my stuff from the steps. "Sorry for blocking your way," I apologized again as I bowed my head. "No need to apologize." He said as he waved his hands. "But, seriously, are you really okay?" I nodded my head smiling, "yes, I'm okay, I'll get going. Bye," I said while walking off.

I pass Kageyama and Hinata as I walked away from the gym. Damn, that was so embarrassing.

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~completed on 11/12/2020
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