last kiss. (jemily)

three.

jennifer jareau had never considered herself a compulsive person, but she had never considered herself as someone who liked women either. emily just seems to have the effect on her.

so now, here she is, on a plane to paris to see emily. she tried to tell herself that it was strictly business, but deep down she knew it wasn't. as she sits alone on the plane, staring out the window, she can't help but regret not talking to emily sooner.

she remembers one time a few years ago, a moment where she just about told emily, but she didn't. it was when jj was pregnant with henry. will couldn't make it to a doctors appointment and jj didn't want to go alone, so emily, being the amazing  friend she is, volunteered to tag along.

emily knew that jj was always nervous at doctors appointments, so she held her hand as her baby popped up on the screen. jj looked at it in awe, then looked at emily, who, to her surprise, had a similar expression.

in that moment, looking up at emily, jj wished nothing more than to be with emily, building a family with her.

"you ever considered it?" jj asks on the drive home.

emily raises an eyebrow, "what's that?"

"you know, having kids. have you ever considered it?"

emily takes a deep breath, "god, i don't know. i think the world has enough emily prentiss in it. it doesn't need anymore."

"oh, come on. the world could never have enough emily prentiss in it."

"you are too sweet.", emily says, smiling over at her.

"plus, i think you would be an amazing mother."

"well, that is definitely debatable." emily thinks for a second, "maybe i'd do it if i found the right person, but i don't see that happening anytime soon."

"i get that, but also you don't need a man to have a baby, em. there's other ways, too."

"i know that, jen. i would be using those ways even if i found someone, anyways."

jj raises an eyebrow, "wait, now i'm confused."

emily takes a deep breath, then continues, "i'm not really...looking for a man, if you get what i'm saying."

jennifer thinks for a second, then it hits her, "oh! you like women?"

"yep, that's it." emily says.

"em, why am i just now hearing about this?"

"well, i didn't really admit it to myself until recently."

"ah, okay." jj says, "well, i'm glad you're finally being honest with yourself."

emily smiles, "yeah, me too."

as jj continues to sit in the passenger seat of emily's car, she can't help but wonder if emily has a crush on her. not out of homophobia, but just out of longing.