If only

Chapter 7

In love we have two choices : To fight for it or to let go

At first, I didn't want to give up

I wanted to keep on fighting till the end and in time, you'll notice me and love me back

But I learned that not every story ends in a happily ever after

Some end in disasters 

I always hoped that my one sided love would be no more and it wouldn't be one sided anymore

I have always hoped that you would love me for who I am

It's been three months since I saw you

It's been three months since I admired you

Its been three months since I started feeling this way

I guess we were never meant to be

But I'm not sad at all

On fact, I'm happy that I got to know you

I was so focused on you that I haven't realized that I fell for another person before you

I was so in denial that I didn't notice it anymore

I began to think back a few days ago

I analyzed everything

then I realized that I also fell for somebody but didn't realize it until now

Once again I was in denial

Then I never realized that that person was also in my mind

Occasionally, I would think about him 

But I was so fixated on you that I hardly noticed him

I knew his name after knowing yours,it was only a coincidence since he and my cousin belong to the same team

He is my cousin's senpai and his teammate

He's not handsome and I accidentally said 'ew' to his picture but despite thinking of that

I could hear my heart beat

It was as if something was flowing out of it

Thanks to you and to your girlfriend, I realized that I didn't really love you

but despite that, you made me realize a lot of things

like following your heart and how hard it is to move on 

Now, I admire her, your girlfriend. She's really good at dancing and to me she has this motherly aura around her

We hung out last Friday and it was really fun even though we would have been in a lot of trouble

She was really fun to be with, a little crazy and funny

Your a little wild and competitive not to mention easily flattered

You two are for each other

Your meant to be

I hope that you are happy to be with her 

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Hey guys!

This is the last chapter for if only~! Since my love for this guy is a gone, okay maybe he's still in my mind but  only 20% left. I found this other guy who I think was staring at me today and well yesterday. It's just a maybe, okay? I kinda think he's cute but I always say that he's not handsome yet he makes me feel happy and excited~! My cousins tease me about him, well that's not the worst part. My father teases me with evry guy I know that's on his team...... Well lesson learned, never write what you feel on your phone without any passwords.