Blank Memories

She doesn't remember me
I remember her
Every second since she left
She forgot me the second she left

She came back
I were still there
She forgot
I can't forget

She smiled
I cried
She didn't know
I knew everything

I broke down
She just ignored
I couldn't believe
She never considered

SHE came back
I ran away

Aidens POV.
I'm in my senior year in high school. It was the first day and I was playing around with my friends. As we played Jade stopped and said "look at that girl! She is a hot one, isn't she?" We all turned around and saw the girl he meant. It wasn't to hard, she was new and had light brown hair, purple eyes and a beautiful face and body. I noticed that many guys turned to look at her. I froze at a thought. I knew her. "I know her. " I said out loud with a chocked face. They looked at me like I was crazy. "How?" Asked Andy. "She lived here 3 years ago, but moved because of family reasons." I answered quickly. I needed to talk to her. When? Now? After school, I decided.

I ran out of my class I knew were she has her locker I ran there and waited for her. She came after a while. "Hey, July" I said smiling nervously. It was 3 years since I last spoke to her. Since THAT happened. "..hi.." She said looking at me as she was waiting for something. I smiled sadly and shook my head in disbelief, she didn't remember. "You lived here 3years ago? Remember that boy, Riley? The one you played tag with when we were ten? That was me" she still looked at me confused. "...I've.. Lived here before...?" She asked. I couldn't believe she didn't remember! Not that I would want to remember after THAT. " you can't even remember me? I-I" my voice cracked and I had tears in my eyes. She just shook her head and I all I wanted was to cry, break down and cry. "Oh.... Ok... It's not like I was important or something.. We just used to friends and so on" I waved goodbye with a sad, broken smile and left her there confused.

I was home. Nobody was home as usually. I screamed and banked my hands against the walls and floor, everything to let my anger out. She didn't even remember me! I couldn't even forgot, if I was only that blessed! I screamed and screamed, crying my heart out. I let myself break down for the first time in years.

For the next couple of days I pretended nothing had happened, but my friends pushed me about it. They knew how I was before I met her and how much of a mess I am now.

I could lock eyes with her time to time and every time I look like I'm breaking. What nobody knew is that I already were broken, destroyed by unwanted memories.

I was destroyed by those memories. The memories she forgot. The promises she forgot and the promises I can't forget. THAT day was the day we both died, but only I can remember. THAT day her little sister died because we didn't pay attention. It's killing me and she forgot. I'm cursed and she's blessed.

A month after she came back I disappeared to never return.
I never looked back and I never healed.
My every step heavy by guilt.
Her every step light by the blessing of being unknowing.