"I'm not a freak..." ||Depressed!Momo x Jirou||

Help me...

Jirou and I arrived at the dorms to find Bakugou and Kirishima... about to kiss? "So," Jirou said teasingly. "Who's bottom?" They both jumped, and Kirishima proudly said, "That's me." Jirou cracked up at that. "Hell yeah you are, Ei," Bakugou added. Kirishima's cheeks turned a deeper shade of red than his hair, and covered his eyes. "Heh. You always do that when I call you by your first name," Bakugou said. "I've never seen you so calm, Bakugou," Jirou joked. His facial expression immediately changed to an angry one. "OH SHUT UP, EARPHONES!" Bakugou yelled. "You jinxed it," I whispered into Jirou's ear. She snorted at that.

-Time skip: after lunch-

"Hey everyone! Let's play truth or dare!" Mina shouted. All the girls and most of the boys got into a circle (except Mineta, of course. We banned him from truth or dare games, or any games for that matter).

After everyone was seated, Mina looked around the circle with a smirk. "Yaomomo," she began. My eyes widened. "Truth or dare?" "Truth," I said without hesitation. "We all know you have a crush," she said. Damn, you're just so transparent and weak, the voice told me. "Can you give us a hint of who he is?" Mina asked. "Bold of you to assume I only like guys," I accidentally said out loud. Everyone looked at me with wide eyes. "Oh. I said that out loud. Crap," I said, covering my face. "Wait, you're gay?" Hagakure asked. "Um... yeah." Gay bitch! Freak! Dumb shit! The voice threw more insults at me that I'd rather not say. I suddenly felt multiple arms around me, and when I looked up, all the girls were hugging me. "We support you!" Tsuyu said. "Yeah! Don't sweat it!" Hagakure said. "I, myself, am pansexual, so yeah! Gay buddies?" Mina said. "I'm lesbian," Uraraka added. "I thought you were American," Denki said, quoting a vine. Everyone cracked up. "Well, while we're talking about that, I wanted to add that I'm also gay," Midoriya said. I didn't expect that. "Come here!" Mina said, and when he came over, she brought him into the group hug.

We continued the game, and found out that not only was Todoroki bisexual, he was dating Midoriya. Mina basically fangirled. I was just thinking about the fact that he had a two-sided quirk and he was bi. I brought it up, and everyone laughed for some reason. Then, Aizawa came into the room as Sero was doing his dare to do the Spider-Man scene with Denki where Peter kisses Mary Jane upside down. "...I'm not even gonna ask," he said in a tired tone. I saw that his eyes were red and puffy, like he had just been crying. "What's wrong, Mr. Aizawa? Are you okay?" He asked. "I'm fine," Sensei answered. "Could I please have Yaoyorozu for a moment? You're not in trouble, I just have a message for you." "Okay," I said, getting up.

Once we were a safe distance from the group, Mr. Aizawa looked at me with sad sympathy. "Mr. Aizawa? What happened?" I asked. "I'm so sorry, Yaoyorozu," he told me. "Your mother was found dead from suicide." Tears flooded my eyes, and fell quicker than I fell to my knees. I was sobbing to the point where I felt like I was suffocating. I couldn't stop hyperventilating, and I felt detached from my body. Was this... a panic attack? All I remember from there was Mr. Aizawa running to get someone, and coming back with another student. They hugged me and rocked me slowly, back and forth. I eventually felt like I was back in my body, and when I looked up at the person who hugged me to find out that it was Jirou. "It's okay," she said in a quiet, comforting tone. "I'm here. Shhh..." "I guess we'll talk about... the details later," Mr. Aizawa said. While it wasn't completely helpful, I was grateful that he was trying to be considerate. He left Jirou and me, leaving us alone in the hallway. I hugged her and let the tears fall once again. She stroked my head sympathetically. "I heard what happened. I'm so sorry about your mom," she said, rocking me slowly back and forth once again. It's your fault she killed herself, the voice told me. If you had been more considerate, or asked for less things, she wouldn't have done that! You inconsiderate freak! You useless shit! The voice attacked me with insults and blames as I cried onto Jirou's shirt. Once I calmed down, Jirou asked me, "Do you want to go to your dorm?" To which I nodded. "I'm pretty tired, so I guess I'll take a nap," I replied. She picked me up bridal style, which made me blush furiously, and carried me from into the elevator all the way to my room on the tenth floor, opening my door and putting me down on my bed. She put a blanket of hers over me, and hugged me again. "Again, I'm really sorry about what happened," she said sympathetically. "It's okay," I said before immediately falling asleep.

-trigger warning: suicide scene-

In my dream, my mother came to me in my dorm. "Ungrateful bitch," she yelled, getting a rope from who knows where. "Mother...?" "I don't know why I still live to serve your every need," she said, tying the rope around a tree, then her neck. "Mother, stop it!" I yelled with tears in my eyes. She jumped, and hung herself. No matter how much I tried to lift her, she wouldn't budge, I looked back up to see an emotionless face on my mother's limp body. Her lips moved. "This should be you," she mouthed.

I woke up with a startle, and the feeling of arms hugging me waist. I looked behind me to see Jirou, and even though I should be happy that she stayed to comfort me, I felt nothing. I couldn't feel emotion. This is punishment. You deserve this. Okay? The voice yelled at me. I nodded. Good girl. You need to feel absolutely nothing. You need to be punished. You need to know what your mother went through because of you, the voice said. "Stop!" I thought. Stop? Hah. You know the only way to stop me. You know it's right. So just do it. Just kill yourself already!

Ha, yeah you know I'm relating in a concerning level :')