The One That Got Away.

Hi fellow readers and shippers. My name is Riley and I've become addicted to Carmilla, so here it is my first attempt to writing some angst AU song fic for the fandom. Please don't hate me! Any mistake is mine. English is not my first language. I hope you all enjoy! The song is by Katy Perry. Basically, Carmilla and Laura meet during their senior year. When Carmilla is turned into a vampire, she's told she has to leave the country and everyone she loves, behind. So she does so. But she doesn't tell Laura the real reasons why she leaves, leaving Laura heartbroken.

Summer after high school when we first met
We'd make out in your Mustang to Radiohead

You weren't even into that kind of music, but she was and the light in her eyes when she spoke about her favorite songs made you feel like a zoo had taken over your stomach. She was so beautiful and passionate. Like the color red. You know that if you had to describe her with a color, red would be. Also, the way her hips pressed against yours while she kissed you made you feel like you could melt away. She had an old black Mustang and you never thought you could like cars but when you found yourself sitting on her lap and wasting her lips away with kisses, you felt like cars are as important as the kind of bikes you enjoy to ride. But only because you're with her.

And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos.

"I promise it doesn't hurt that much, cupcake. It's okay. We'll do just fine… Besides… I plan on showing off our tattoo to our grandkids when we are old, so they know that true love exists." That was her excuse to get a little half moon on her hip. You got it in your wrist and it didn't hurt as much as you thought it would. She looked radiant about it and you two took pictures together with your matching tattoos. You wouldn't do something like this for someone else. But only for her.

Used to steal your parents' liquor
and climb to the roof
Talk about our future
like we had a clue

"But Carm… What if your mom finds out? What if she gets mad?" "Easy, cupcake. My momster is out of town on a conference… We can have some fun… Besides, you need to trust me. I won't let you fall. Now give me your hand. My rooftop has an amazing view of the city." She said, as she pulled you up her roof in one easy movement. You talked about love, life and mysteries. About how your dad would've killed you if he found out you aren't studying the organic chemistry of alcohols yet you are tasting alcohol directly from the chocolate liquor bottle. "So you told your mom you're going to study at Silas only to be with me?" "Of course, cupcake. If we're lucky, we'll get paired up as roomies." She said, cocking her eyebrows repeatedly with a kinky smile. You can't help but blush. Future looks promising. But only because it's with her.

Never planned that one day
I'd be losing you

It shatters you to the floor. You cannot believe that forever ended in a blink. That future won't be as thrilling as it sounded. That you ended up alone. You woke up one day to a note on your pillow that read "Come to my house ASAP. It's important. C."
When you heard the words coming out of her mouth, the same mouth that a year ago was touching yours for the first time and making you feel like the cookies you love so much are bitter, your whole body went into shock and suddenly, after the phrase "I can't do this anymore" reached your ears, you became deaf to the rest of the world. You stopped hearing the outside only to hear your internal organs explode. Everything was hurting. And you were sure that Carmilla's maid could hear the thumping of your heart against your ribcage as it beat. But you are sure it's starting to slow down. You're sure it is breaking, physically, even though it's impossible, but you are certain that medical miracles exist, for good and for bad. And in this case, your heart is being thorn to pieces and your lungs are becoming claustrophobic into your ribcage. You feel your insides closing in and tears are cascading down your cheeks. You close your eyes and collapse on the floor. When you wake up, you're back into your bed and a box of your old cd's and shirts is sitting on your desk, like a constant reminder that you weren't enough. That Carmilla chose a life without you in it. That forever was a lie. Because forever was supposed to be only with her.