GRACEFULLY BROKEN

CHAPTER FORTY EIGHT

We drive into the SunMed parking lot for our check up. Apparently we need one before we travel to Eswatini to meet my father. We get out of the car and walk towards the reception area. Instead of stopping and asking if Dr Khuzwayo is available, this guy decides to walk past. I look at the receptionist and she pretends like she didn't see us.

We get to Dr Khuzwayo's office and turns out she is expecting us.

Dr K: "I have been expecting you, so what's the problem?" I look at Philani.
Philani: "We want to travel and we just need to make sure that it's okay for us to travel especially with the baby and stuff."
Dr K: "Where are you going?"
Philani: "Eswatini. We want to leave tomorrow."
Dr K: "Okay, I think it should be fine."
Me: "See, I told you."
Philani: "There is absolutely nothing wrong with getting a professional opinion."
Me: "Oh, so you dont think I know my body?"
Philani: "You do but she is a doctor and you are not."
Me: "Philani I am pregnant. I dont have a terminal illness."
Philani: "I know but......."
Me: "But nothing. I know you are excited about this baby and so am I but going to the doctor for every little thing is not on."
Philani: "Traveling is not just a little thing."
Me: "We were here last week because I cut myself with a knife and you wanted to know how that will affect the baby."
Philani: "Its called taking precautions."
Me: "Philani....."
Dr K: "Ok ok. You two. I think that's enough. Biyela, she is right, you cant come to the hospital for everything. The pregnancy is not a high risk one so everything will be fine. And you can travel."
Me: "Thank you doctor." I take my bag and walk out and Philani follows me. We walk back to the car in silence. He opens the door for me and I get in before he gets on the other side but he doesn't start the engine.
Philani: "I am sorry. I just want everything to be perfect." I turn and look at him.
Me: "I want it to be perfect too but you are going a bit extreme."
Philani: "I am sorry."
Me: "Fine I will forgive you as soon as you buy me hot wings." He laughs.
Philani: "Okay then. Let's get hot wings." He kisses me. "I love you, you know that right?"
Me: "Of course you do what's there not to love." He laughs again and starts the car. "I love you too."

We drive out of the hospital and we buy the wings at a chicken licken drive thru before driving to Dainfern to see Kazi. We get to the gate and drive in. As we get out of the car his phone rings so he stays behind to answer it. I walk through the door and I hear muffled sounds coming from somewhere in the house. I follow the voices and they lead me to the kitchen. I am met with the sight of a naked Sizwe and Qhawekazi having sex on the kitchen counter.

Me: "Oh my God." They scream when they see me. I turn around and walk out the door where I am met by Philani on his way in.
Philani: "Hey, where are you going?"
Me: "Uhm, yeah ah. We need to leave."
Philani: "Why? I still need to see my sister." He tries to walk past me but I block his way.
Me: "Yeah she's not here. I just called her."
Philani: "You left your phone in the car. Lando what's going on?" Oh Lord. I say a silent prayer.
Me: "I want wings."
Philani: "You just had wings."
Me: "I want more."
Philani: "Okay we'll buy more when we leave."
Me: "No, I want them now. Or dont you care about your baby. Your baby wants wings and you want to starve him? Really Philani?" I let the tears fall. Thank God for Mrs Swanepoel's drama classes. Philani panics when he sees me crying.
Philani: "Okay, okay please dont cry. Let's go get your wings. We walk back to the car and I wipe my tears pretending to be upset.
As soon as we drive out I take my phone from my bag and text Kazi.

'You owe me.'
'I know. Anything you want.'
'I still need to think about it.'
'I will be waiting.-
'Why are you having sex in your father's kitchen?'
'😂😂 it's called being spontaneous.'
'What if your brother walked in first?'
'The Biyela ancestors love me that's why they sent you in first.'
'🙄🙄 whatever. I will tell you when I gave decided what I want.'
'I love you 😘😘'
'I love you too. Now please clean that countertop with bleach and disinfectant.'
'😂😂 will do.'
'And you need to tell your brother about your relationship. You cant hide it forever.'