Me Without You

i've Got You

The day had come, and Jeonghan couldn't hold in his excitement. Today he would put his heart on the line and hope Mingyu wouldn't reject him. All the members gathered into the vans, dressed in suits and ties.

Mingyu jumped into the last van along with Wonwoo; While Jeonghan stuck close to Hoshi, holding him near his body to shield the cold. He could see the look of disappointment on Mingyu's face from afar. Jeonghan stepped back and onto a different vehicle to avoid Mingyu's disapproval. Dk followed behind, and Seungkwan behind him, closing the door as he took a seat.

"Don't be nervous, there's  a 50/50 chance he'll forgive you," Seungkwan noted objectively. "I don't know," Dk chimed in, "that one time I ate the last ramen..." Hoshi places his hand over Dk's mouth, "It'll be fine Jeonghan-hyung."

As they arrive they are greeted by a large ship on the dock. All the members step out to admire the view, enamored by it's size and beauty. Mingyu is the first to rush on board, failing to notice a pair of steps. Before he can lunge forward, the weight of a hand lands on his shoulder. Mingyu looks down at the steps he had missed, then back at the hand, and lastly at the handsome figure. "I've got you," Jeonghan smiles up at him; "I know," Mingyu replies gently.
And with those two simple words, Jeonghan felt the nerves dissolve.

Seventeen worked hard through out the evening, and well into the night, filming Home;Run's special music video. "Ok, that's a wrap," the director yells and the film crew follows him out. All the members form a circle around Jeonghan and Mingyu. Mingyu steps out of the circle and stands next to Wonwoo, but Wonwoo pushes him back in. Mingyu giggles, until he turns and is met by Jeonghan's love struck eyes.

Jeonghan's heart beat faster every time Mingyu takes a steps forward. Unexpectedly his eyes fill with pockets of tears. "Baby, are you okay?," He asks, without hesitation. He then remembers the 11 pairs of eyes that watch them. "I-," he clears his throat and deepens his voice, "I mean Jeonghan are you okay."

A tear escapes him and runs down his cheek, but still silent. Jeonghan thought he would know the right words to say. That they would just come to him, as easily as it was to love Mingyu. Joshua speaks up, "Jeonghan it's okay, we're here, just say it."

Mingyu awaits painfully, wondering what Jeonghan might say. Was this the end? Is that why he needed courage from the members. The pit inside his stomach fills with an emptiness. He fights his fear and holds on to Jeonghan's hand tightly, almost begging for him to stay with his gaze.

"Please don't leave me," Mingyu cries out first. "I don't know why, I couldn't look past simple things, why I just couldn't enjoy being us.."

"Mingyu, stop," Jeonghan attempts to quiet him down. But Mingyu continues pouring out his soul, "There is not a day, that I haven't loved you, there isn't a moment I could ever erase, I have no regrets of loving the way that I have."

Mingyu stops abruptly, worried that he had ruined what they had by revealing his feelings. He looks at the faces of each member and spots Dk sobbing into his jacket, Hoshi red in the face with tears, Wonwoo smiling proudly, Woozi holding back laughter, and Vernon filming the whole scene.

Once he reaches Jeonghan, the tears have set themselves free and roam down his cheek. He was ready; Jeonghan had found his courage in Mingyu's words.