Me Without You

Joshua's Wisdom

Joshua reluctantly made his way to Jeonghan's room; "What is it now Yoon Jeonghan, if this is a scam, I don't want hear it." Jeonghan grins widely, "When have I ever," he attempts to defend himself. Joshua begins to recount all of Jeonghan's shenanigans, "the time you tried to sell me Hoshi's used shoes, the time you made fake concert tickets, the time you..."

Jeonghan is both amused and embarrassed; He holds one finger on Joshua's lips, "Shhhhhh, let's not over exaggerate." An annoyed Joshua pushes the finger away. "Tell me what you need or I leave now." Jeonghan takes a seat on his bed, and signals for Joshua to do so too.

"I want Mingyu," Jeonghan says confidently. "Ok, I see you aren't going to take this seriously so i'm out," Joshua protests. Jeonghan grabs his arm as Joshua gets up to leave and whips him back onto the bed. They both laugh, but Joshua is determined to leave.

"I'm serious, I swear," Jeonghan begs. Joshua is swayed by the begging since it isn't something Jeonghan would usually do, desperate times called for desperate measures.

"What do you even mean by 'want', I thought you had him," Joshua assumes. Joshua had known for sometime that Mingyu and Jeonghan had a "thing". He didn't know what exactly they had, but on occasions he would cover for them. He didn't bother to ask Jeonghan, he was a little afraid of the answer. He didn't want to hold that secret or be put in the middle like he was right now.

The only things he really knew was that time with Mingyu meant a lot to Jeonghan. That Jeonghan's eyes lit up anytime he talked about his life size teddy bear. And that being around Kim Mingyu made him happy. Truly that was everything Joshua always wanted for Jeonghan, his happiness.

"I lost him, because I was scared," Jeonghan softly says. Joshua only stares in silence waiting for his best friend to explain. "I don't know if loving Mingyu means I'm gay, but I don't care anymore, I used to care, but I..," Jeonghan stammers through his sentence. Joshua in his infinite wisdom takes Jeonghan's hands into his own, and gently whispers, "you're an idiot." Jeonghan nods back sadly, "I know."

"What does a label mean anyways? If you love him be with him, it's that simple," Joshua asserts. The words made sense once he heard them out loud. He pounces on Joshua and wraps him tightly, "let me kiss you," he giggles. "EEWWWW YUCK, your lips have been on Mingyu's," Joshua wrestles Jeonghan off.

"You can leave now," Jeonghan jokes around. One member down, 12 to go, he thought to himself.