hurt - mattia polibio

ch. 5

luna pov*
i start to have a panic attack as we are leaving and everything leaves my body, all pain hss been absorbed. "luna?!" i hear mattia, "are you okay?!", "take me home please!" i say, he pulls over as i breath harder. he gets off and comes around to me, "luna. you need to breathe. i've called brian and your dad . they are coming." mattia says worried , i continue to panic and tears fall down my face, "luna" after saying my name again, he hugs me and i collapse into his arms, "it's going to be okay" he says, knowing it's never going to be okay..

my dad eventually gets here w brian and rush to me, "luna? breathe hunny breathe" my dad says holding me, i hear brian asking mattia questions, and mattia asking questions back. "you have therapy tomorrow" my dad says brushing my hair w his hands, "i know" i say...
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we get home and i sleep.
i wake up to mattia sitting, "i should probably explain now" i say, "im scared but if you aren't ready to tell me i'm okay w that" mattia says, "i want too" i sit up.. i explain everything that's ever happen to me and my voice shakes a lot as i speak. "i'm very sorry luna." mattia says worried, "i couldn't imagine such a cruel person", "yeah and that's why i have therapy and why im so scarred by everything. why i am scared to be touched and why i have anxiety. i know it's a bit much and i'm going to be honest i like you a lot but if this is to much that's okay" i say letting everything out, "aw luna. it's not to much. and i like you too." he says, he puts his hand and holds my face whipping my tears w his thumbs, "you're cute when you cry luna but i hope you're okay" he makes me feel safe and i go in for a hug he hugs back and touches my hair.  i let go and lay back down, he sits for a sec but i look at him and he lays w me, he holds me and i lay against his chest , he's v warm he was wearing a hoodie and some shorts .  "goodnight" he says, "night i smile.